My life's cycle :)

As the wheel breaks the butterfly.

2011-11-01T19:23:00.002+08:00

Listening to: Paradise - Coldplay
Mood:

Hello my dear dead blog.

There's a zillion things that's going through my head.

Well, life hasn't been much of a breeze for me. It was pretty much a hurricane.

So yeah, in my 2nd phase of uni year.

Homework is more that what I can digest and well, even by not procrastinating, I still feel like what I do isn't good enough.

To top that, the weather these days is just unexceptionably crazy as compared to last years.

Thunderstorms, heavy downpours ; even the weather is being overly dramatic.

Without a doubt, projects are lesser but the depth of research and design is far from my first phase of my uni year. The horror.

In a way, I'm getting a taste of what's like to be a designer in reality.

Done computerized architectural drawings, sounds fine by me but the ability to produce everything within a week? The feeling is seriously just, extremely overwhelming.

I always feel like I'm running but I don't quite know what exactly am I chasing.

Gotta get my head back in the game.

There's a feeling about how I actually feel about everything but I can't quite reflect and explain what it is.

And I won't talk about my social life because, my social life just revolve around my classmates. Haha, hanging out with old friends and what not. I mean, everyone has their own future to chase after but when I look at them, I feel somewhat stagnant.

Hmm, I don't know really. Well, just gonna leave that aside.

All I know is that I want my sleep hours back and to get that back I need to start work like right now. Hahaha

Such a geek, but hey. Gotta maintain that A (:
Till next time!

And I kinda wish people would stop taking advantage of dead blog's empty chatbox and promote their stuff :/
Not like I have the time to even clean it up. Ish.

TTFN!

Living like kings with broken strings.

2011-07-23T00:51:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Young Forever - The Ready Set

At first, I wanted to blog about something

But I guess, I better not

Now I'm just waiting for time to pass ; haha.

July, july.

2011-07-14T20:58:00.003+08:00

Listening to: All That You Are - Goo Goo Dolls
Mood:

Omgarsh, I can't believe I skipped the most important month of my life ; June.
Well, pretty much the most happening month because its like the busiest month for me.

Birthdays, meeting deadlines for coursework & etc.

Though it's rocky, I had the best birthday(s) ever!

Yes, birthdays hahaha.

There's the early birthday with Chanti and Chitra because Chitra will start college on my birthday week

Actual birthday(s) one in the day with my college friend who shares the same birthday as me; Caroline (:

and the other one an epic surprise close to midnight by Jennifer, Montri and Eng Hoe :D

Then the uber late one by Shaun, Darren and Ian Zhan who treated me to a really filling dinner ; 3 weeks later ._." because Shaun was preparing for exams so he couldn't celebrate with me.

Haha but overall, the month of June ; as much as I hated it because of the coursework deadlines and stuff, I manage to squeeze in some time to catch a breath and embrace the fact that I am ; older. *sobs

July,july.

Can't believe its already July and my schedule is haha, pretty flexible ; so far.

Last coursework of Year 1 Degree and I'm determined to give my all.

Kinda glad that there's only one coursework to focus on ; which is my gallery design and once again, being as ambitious as ever I have too many ideas

*note to self : Try and F.O.C.U.S

Yesterday, we had a class trip to Petrosains and the Petronas Gallery with their watercolour artwork which was really, breathtaking.

Haha, it was really fun being in Petrosains ; as it was my first time - yes, I know I'm like almost 20years old and this is my first time going into Petrosains

Honestly, I think I was worst than the preschoolers who were so disciplined O:

I was like running, skipping, hitting, and touching all the exhibited items there hahaha ; not to mention screaming :|

Man, I'm such a monster hahaha.

Congratulations Petrosains for creating that ambiance which allows me to be that kid I was :D

Now that I think about it, my transition to being where I am is like a -sine graph :|

I hope I'm quoting the right graph ._."

Moving on!

Honestly I was struggling with a lot of things

But I shall not talk about that ; no point reminiscing something that is gonna make me well, miserable and go though that what I call my progress-less phase of life.

But honestly, it's about time I get my priorities straight and keep moving forward to shaping my future.

And after all those pathetic self dramas of mine

I participated more in things related to my field

Attending talks, participating in conferences and international leveled competitions, going for exhibitions

Tho I didn't win a place in anything, at least with me as I walk out those doors a handful (more like bags) of knowledge

I remember what my father told me why I came home disappointed not even being shortlisted out of 600 people into the top 25.

With that narrow mind of mine I said "It was to competitive; my chances of winning was like 1/599"

And he said "That was practically the chance everyone had when they entered the room"

& that opened my eyes to the great possibilities.

That sowed some seeds of determination to perform even better and to win in up coming competitions (:

I can do this!

Now, back to brainstorming for the gallery design.

Final project ; Bring it on!

Till then ;)

Sometimes.

2011-05-29T13:46:00.003+08:00

Listening To: Somewhere Only We Know - Keane

I feel like I jump into things without thinking over it rationally

And this isn't the first time.

Yesterday I receive an e-mail from the Agent's of Change- A design community for the youth to create a change to our Design Industry.

Well it's not compulsory to be part of this community but I thought it would be a good experience and stuff
So I signed up about last week through a friend.

Then when the e-mail came yesterday
The first thing that ran through my mind was "Will I be able to even commit in this?"
When there's a will, there's a way ; I know I know

But, there simply are just times when your enthusiastic will power is slowed down by your tired body.

Well, will figure out a way to partake in this (:

Lesson learnt : before jumping head first into anything 1) Think of what's the consequences 2) Ask if there's any criteria to fulfill 3) Think if you've got time to commit to it or not.

In the meantime, a minimum 100 word essay about myself ; the one topic I hate writing about.

A haunting.

2011-05-22T00:01:00.004+08:00

Its not the paranormal activity that happen

Or the transparent beings that haunt you most of the times

It's often the actions that you partake

Which then becomes and unforgettable mistake

And when you can't seem to forget about it or let go

It comes back haunting you

Creating that unexplainable fear that grows and often makes you hope that

You'll never make the same mistake again.

"When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.”

– Alexander Graham Bell

Penny Wise , Pound Foolish.

2011-05-21T22:40:00.003+08:00

Listening to: Boomerang - Plain White T's
Mood:

Went shopping with mommy from 11am to 5pm today

Yes, we were shopping & window shopping till my feet were killing me

I think the grips on my slippers got worn out from it ; haha.
And the reason to why we were hanging out at the mall till late was because,

We had to wait for my sister to finish shopping with her friends :|
So why not we make use of the time given and just look at pretty shoes, clothes and bags? :D

Well, I didn't get myself much stuff apparel wise and footwear

I like clothes -baggy t's, off-shoulders, decent blouse, pencil skirts and shorts ; can't lie.
And I love shoes, especially Chuck Taylor's ; don't you love the classics?

And a bag or two ain't that bad - slings and backpacks (:

But what I love most is books ; yes I'm nerdy ;)

So today I got myself two fat books for what? RM40

I don't know about you but to me it's so darn reasonable!

Plus, they are very fat.

Haha, the usual genre I read - History (another 10 nerd points to that!)

Well, there's just something about the world history that seem to draw me closer to the book

In a way, I feel small ; not knowing what has happened from 2000BC to the present day

I read the papers, yes but this is like a series of events

From many centuries back

And all acting towards a certain something, like a continuous cause and effect

Which helped mold our present day.

And that interest me ; the molding of civilization and cultural development; not forgetting every nook and cranny that's in between.

Some are sad, some are uplifting like the undying spirit to create a better future for the future generation

But it got me wondering, is it really for the future generation

Or is it more for the undying fame that will cheat death by immortalizing their name in historical documentations ; hmm...

Nevertheless, yes history never fail to amuse me

And now I wonder why I resented history during secondary school

Probably 'cause it was in BM and I'm not that familiar digesting information in that language

But well, some bits of history in the secondary school syllabus is interesting ( 2o nerd points ; ohnoes)

And now I shall reveal my book titles! - "o'crap you wouldn't!"
Haha nah, I won't but its about Greek mythologies and another one is about a documentation on how things happened like the exploration of king Tutankhamen's tomb, the Industrial Revolution, the . . .

You asleep yet? (:

And before I went back, I was captivated by this really cute, printed fabric sling bag I saw in Roxy - so now will you minus my nerdy points? :P

Yes, it's so cute and slinged and it's quite big for a sling bag.

Price ; 20% off for the bag and I won't tell you the price.

But yes, I bought it and I simply adore it

Can't wait to take it out with me one day (:

With my survival kit - a water bottle,pencil case, cellphone, purse and my sketchbook

Yes, its like the great big bag of everything and I'm very pleased with it

And that's how I spend my money.

Not exactly penny wise, pound foolish cause everything fell within my spending range for the month

And, that is my first time shopping after centuries of not paying pilgrimage to my shopping haven

Haha, well - Till then (:

I really gotta make time for "The Da Vinci Code"

Leave no stone unturned.

2011-05-20T21:59:00.004+08:00

Listening to: All About Him - Auburn
Mood:

Ever feel like there's a place that you have to go ; like its a calling?
Maybe its a phase we'll go through one day

But for me that day came sooner than I expected.

After being exposed to a few snap shots of Singapore by my lecturer on public art, the sudden yearning to go there and explore that little island on my own grew inside of me.

I've been to Singapore when I was 16 ; I think

Well it was quite awhile back

But where we went to were the normal tourist hot spots ; especially the malls.

And my conclusion from that trip is that Singapore is just like Malaysia.

Like Malaysia? Cultural wise, food, geographic location - Maybe.

But development wise, so much more different

It's amazing how a small island has achieve such development

I was captivated with their artistic approach especially

Their museum, churches, their tertiary education campuses, even their rubbish bins

Such detail ; as they say 'God is in the details'.

It's a shame I never did notice and appreciate the little intricate details of what some of Singapore's existing infrastructures and some of their primary structures have to offer when I was there.

This is why, I feel this urge to go back there

To at least see, take note, understand their public art and most importantly be inspired!

Singapore, 13 continents smaller than Malaysia

But their achievements in the arts and development sector never fail to amuse me.

Strict? -Maybe

Artistically Inovative -Most definitely.

Probably Malaysia have such things to offer too; in time I will slowly discover.

But now, Singapore ; I'll pay you a visit someday :)
Take the bus, a few days and a loyal guide. Not to mention my Polaroid, films and all & a digital camera.

I think I should one day prepare my bucket list ; haha.

Till then (:

Whoa Mona Lisa

2011-05-10T22:46:00.004+08:00

Listening to: The Ballad of Mona Lisa - Panic at the Disco
Mood: -

Hello little world of mine

Let me be honest with you here

I'm getting tired of the hurdles that I have to face

And really, sometimes I just feel like giving up.

Seriously, its that hectic

One workload after another

Currently I can slowly relax and blog cause I'm on my break

Haha. More like a delay period but I still have to work

Group work, in coming project(s), essay assignment

The pressure is just too much to bear and I admit, I even broke down and cried for no specific reason

But letting those tears flow was a good stress reliever I guess?

And now you ask; if designing was so stressful, why did you take it in the first place?

Good question.

It really got me thinking there as I'm not that bad in chemistry and some parts of physics

With regret I ended up wishing "if only I had studied even harder I'd probably not end up in this shit hole"

But then I realized, I'm stressed ; yes but I'm having fun doing what I do even tho its stressful

Why design is 'cause I never was a book person and through art I can find a way to express my inner thoughts

I don't resent calculations and all, I really am a math person on the inside but I can't seem to find the 'answer' to my calling with mathematics and physics and chemistry and yadayada...you get it

To me, design is dreams made real

I'm a dreamer so I sought a lot of ideas waiting to be expressed through drawings or models

There's no right or wrong answer to it, everyone sees it in a different light

Lots of research and understanding will help improvise that idea because there's always room for improvision

Every area is free for us to explore and venture

The history means something and its essence will be portrayed in every design

No ideas is 100% alike

We can keep moving forward or backtrack to the past

The possibilities are endless

Its a flexible field and that's what I like about it

Red.

2011-04-18T16:50:00.005+08:00

Listening to: -
Mood:

Seriously, never in my life have I've been this angry

Like gosh, where do I start.

I don't intend on bad mouthing or to put down this particular person but ; if you didn't do anything to enraged me, this post wouldn't even have existed right?

Sounds logical?

Life is so unfair ; most of the times.

I see people who are yearning to go to college / university but don't have the money to pursue their dreams

So either they do part time jobs to help pay their fees or they forget all about studying and just focus on working their way up in their career

On the other side where the grass is greener, there are ignorant little kids who goes to college/ university and does what?

Doesn't finish their work and gets just a pass, skip classes and loiter around the cafeteria and hog Facebook via the campuses internet and what?

And the best bit to this cake is that they don't get expelled!

Whoop de doo!

Seriously, if that's what you're gonna do all day during your friggin university years I highly suggest you :

1) If you really think you deserve to stay ; work hard and prove people like me wrong? I dare you.

2) Just drop out. Not only do you get to save your parents money , that slot of yours for that course intake is completely vacant for someone more deserving than you. And you know what is the bonus to that? When group assignments come, NOBODY will be PRAYING to not get grouped together with you cause you wouldn't even be in that course then.

Think about world peace for once.

Another thing; I get the fact that you are one ignorant, lazy, unreliable and inefficient little child.

So please, don't disturb us adults when we're working

Don't go on showing us your deformed sour face when we're having our group tutorial and somehow you are forced to be stuck with us.

Here's the ugly truth, we don't want you around with us for tutorial ; nor do we need you.

And also, I'm sorry you don't understand our mother tongue language and its okay to bitch about it and also about us the moment you step out that door.

Its also okay if you decided to scream about it.

But think about it again, the whole time the group was talking about it in English and you just did what? "sour-face-me" the whole session of our group discussion.

Any opinions from you, of courseeeeeeeeee NOT!

Let me think why; hmmm.....

Ah, maybe its because you couldn't come for last Friday's meeting or should I say, you can come but you decided to fly all of our kites ( figure of speech )

I wonder if it ever occurred to you that books can't talk on behalf of you ; and that is a fact.

It already sucks that when I tried to get you in 4 different ways which is by Calling, Texting, Facebook Messaging and Notifying you IN PERSON when I see you in campus I still can't get you.

What's more is that my efforts are all flushed down the toilet in vain as you never did showed up.

And with that stuck up and ignorant attitude of yours, not to mention the number of times you failed to meet my deadlines and broken your promises ; and a little more to add,FLY MY FRIGGIN KITE A ZILLION TIMES

YOU MAKE MY LIFE AS A GROUP LEADER MISERABLE!!

You: Mission accomplished!

Well if that's what you really wanna do

Here's a few sweet words from me to you

Stop being a sleazy, good for nothing, ignorant, inefficient little bitch

You the gigantic hurdle ; or should I say boulder that's blocking the traffic flow of my group's progress

You never show up for meetings, deadlines also never meet and you don't even keep your word

So, honestly I DO NOT TRUST YOU when it comes to delegating work

The whole class hates your attitude and thinks it's unjust that you get a passing mark even tho you submit late, not once ; so many friggin times.

We're sick of your attitude and it's been on going since we're in the same class as foundation

So if you're NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING

Please, don't stick around

Stay home or something. Like I said, what's the difference with you around or not?

Nothing.

Roadblock

2011-03-04T17:30:00.002+08:00

It's just another hurdle ; so leap over it.

It's time for a change.

Like cymbals crashing.

2011-03-03T13:46:00.004+08:00

Song: Which to bury, us or the hatchet - Relient K

Mood:

After a hectic week, finally the group work is done!

Well, tomorrow's the presentation & I not actually satisfied with work

As compared to my sketch model, this final model look so far off.

Well, just gotta do better in the future, no?

Initially I was reluctant and unmotivated to do anything because of a series of unfortunate events as mentioned in the previous post.

I was down with a bad cough and lost my voice for a week & was stuck with what I thought was the worst group to be in

Everyone in class sympathized me ; and I drowned myself in self pity to a point where it got the best of me

But after a while, I realized I was put through this for a reason

& the only way to get rid of it is to stop feeling sorry for myself, stop being so negative and just suck it up and deal with it.

That is life after all, so live with it & fully utilize every moment given.

So why should I let the bad weigh me down?

It would just affect every aspect of my life like my health, my social life and even my work.

Just give yourself an hour or so to soak in the feeling , cry about it if you have to and then let it go.

The art of detachment.

Well I'm so tired since I only slept for 3 hours because of yesterday's thunderstorm which occurred around 3am.

Haha, skittles and I were shivering in our pants cause lighting flashed like bright spotlights & thunder were loud like cymbals crashing against each other.

My room literally lit up like I turned the lights on for a split second.

Haha, the weather & its unpredictableness.

So that's all I guess.

Time for a cat nap with the fat dog (:

Till then.

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass , its about learning how to dance in the rain

- Vivian Greene

Sweet Misery.

2011-02-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

The 'ultimate dream' team.

The voice that I probably can never have back.

The compelling workload and the rest I'm not actually getting.

This is so not happening...

Whiskers.

2011-02-12T01:05:00.005+08:00

Song: -
Mood:

Dogs have them too you know?

The little sweetheart that touch our hearts with her little paws everyday, Skittles is sick.

Get well soon )':

How much is that doggy in the window ; ♥

P.S : She's not for sale. Lol

Ants.

2011-01-27T23:12:00.004+08:00

Song: -
Mood:

Hardworking and good cooperative skills ; that's what ants are.

I wish I were one.

Been working till 10pm every night since Monday to get our timeline project done.

We've finished our tent project and I'm so glad that our group got second place for it!

It may have failed its function as a tent to shed it from rain ( bad opening planning )

But the design was contemporary and its stability is the best among the rest (:

So, kudos to us lol.

Chinese New Year, ain't gonna be a holiday week for me.

I was given another assignment to do ; furniture plan drawing.

Oh lord, why are there so many numbers.

Interior architecture strains the eyes.

But that can wait for now.

So for the timeline project, we're doing 3 building models

Leaning tower of Pisa, St.Sernin and Notre Damé.

So far the Pisa is done and St.Sernin is like errrrrrr...... 50% done?

Haha, still a long way to go but I think we can pull it off (:

Finger's crossed.

Did I mention, my back is killing me?

Model making is fun but its simply stressful when you're competing in a race with father time.

Oh how I hate that old man-_-"

Can't wait to get things done soon!

I'm so glad I'm not procrastinating (:

Omg, I'm so tired )':

Till then!

And to that special someone out there ; I 'love' the way you lie.

Play, pause.

2011-01-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

Song: Fall for you - Secondhand Serenade
Mood:

I wish there's a remote control like click where I can slow down or pause whatever that's happening.

Its week 2 of year 1 degree and so far I've gotten 2 projects

And you have no idea how massive it is.

Okay maybe for one, its just gargantuan ( I'm exaggerating )

Project 1 :

Warming Up Project / Orientation Project

Or I'd like to call it the "I-Eat-Designers- for-Breakfast Project"

We're suppose to work as a group of 6 to design a designers tent with proper ventilation, lighting and entrance to exhibit a couple of art works.

During the process, we're asked to create a research board, do sketches and build models before building the actual prototype.

Prototype requirement : 6'x6'x6'

Must be fully functional, portable, resistant to wind and rain and properly ventilated

Subject matter & theme : Native American & Teepee ( Given by lecturer )

Did I mention we're only given 2 weeks to construct the whole tent

And 3 of my group members are always MIA-ing and not cooperating

Dear god, help me and my remaining 2 group mates.

due : 24/1/2011 @ 9am

Project 2 :

Timeline Project ( Medieval Period )

Working in a group of 4, we're asked to construct a 3D mind map with the given size 120x60 cm

Having at least 3 prominent buildings during that era

Also to take in consideration would be the well known inventions and events of that period of time.

The process of design and research findings should be documented in an A4 sketchbook

Our goal is to finish it before Chinese New Year so we'd enjoy the holidays ( 2 weeks )

Unfortunately I'm stuck with 1 team member of mine who's also in my other group

& she is so god damn blur and not punctual and not efficient, ~~I swear on my cookie jar!~~

But I still got Sahan and Evon in the group so it's not so bad ; I hope?

due: 16/2/2011 @ 9.30am

Oh and between these projects, I still have classes like normal and have to depend on the graphic design student's schedule to work cause they're in the orientation project with us!

Oh yay. . .

So right now my daily routine is

wake up at 7.45am

reach college around 8.30am

Work from there till 5.00pm or 6.00pm

Come home and have dinner about 8.00pm

Then work till 1.00am or 2.00am latest

before the cycle starts all over again.

And everyone thinks art is easy.

Haha Shar, don't you just wanna punch people who say that in the face?

If there's no hard work, there's no pay.

So, just gotta bulk up and work hard!

Wish me luck.

2011's resolution.

2011-01-01T22:58:00.003+08:00

Work harder than I did in 2010
Clearly, be more hardworking
Open to possibilities ; they're everywhere
Think less, do more
Be inspired
Constant practice is essential
Procrastinate less!!!
2010 merit ; 2011 distinction!
Go for regular cycling and swim more
Be wise with spending & save more.
Complete work before deadlines
Early to bed , early to rise
Take Skittles for walks whenever I'm free
Help out more with the house chores

Hello my 2011 resolution (:

In 2011, giving up is not an option!

Human anatomy through colour

2010-12-29T13:51:00.004+08:00

Theme : Human anatomy through colour

Mixed media ; watercolourr & acrylic.

As promised

2010-12-27T18:10:00.003+08:00

Song: Wake Me - Destine
Mood:

Omg I finally got it done!

In preparation for the New Year I guess?

Haha, this is one is for Shar.

She better check my blog O:

Yes, this is my homework from her.

I think the fishes looked gay. lawl.

Ending of a month.

2010-11-29T20:20:00.002+08:00

Song: Broken - Lifehouse
Mood: -

Omgard, is this the only post I have for the month of November?

Lol , haven't been blogging much since there's so much stuff to do & I'm pretty much lazy

Anyways, recently ( which is today at 8.15am ) I finished my final project of the semester

Manage to pull and all nighter & everyone says I look better than I usually do ; prolly cause i tied my hair back.

Yay!

So all there's left for me to do would be photo archiving, my 2 A2 Presentation board, Moral exam which is tomorrow & Malaysian Studies exam which is the day after tomorrow.

Good gosh.

But I'll get through (:

Time seriously flies.

The feeling of me enrolling into this crash course seem so fresh, like it just happened yesterday

Haha, till time took me by surprise like a ninja!

Its already the end of November, the ending of a month

And when we move in to December, its the ending of a year.

Time flies like a jet plane.

Next year January, everyone in my foundation class will be separated into their respective specialized courses.

Some will go back to their home country

Some will go further their current careers

& Some will stay back to do their 3 years of specialized course

I'm definitely gonna miss FCA30 )':

Thinking about this makes me wonder how everyone else is doing

Like how's Shareen with her life and work,

How's everyone else's studies

Where do they plan to go after their A levels, SAM or even foundation courses.

I really need to catch up with people ; seriously.

Christmas is just around the corner ; well not really. But the month is (:

& I have some Christmas shopping to do

But that's not the point.

The point is, I'm glad that I'll have a 3 week long holiday!

I guess I should use some of the days to make my own artwork

'cause there's always room for improvement.

I guess that's about it?

Till then :D

(:

2010-10-18T21:17:00.004+08:00

Song: In Your Arms - Destine

Mood:

Yellow, mellow , Jell-o :D

I bet you're hungry for a post

Well here ya'll go

I've been lazy

Yes very very lazy to post stuff up ; I guess I just lost interest in blogging?

Apart from that, I've been swimming in a sea of work, work & work!

But I guess so far things are fine as I got them done on time ; Yay me!

Which also explains why I'm free to blog today :D

Lol, so what else happened?

There were the ups & there were the downs

There were the smiles & the frowns

The tears & the laughs

Haha did I mention my lecturer complimented my work?

The only problem would be "Why didn't you take graphic design instead of interior architecture & design"

Me : Why? O:

Lecturer : 'Cause your 2D illustrations and ideas are really good

Me : I'll think about it.

Dilemma ; ohshytnowI'vetothink ):

Oh well.

Did I mention that life so far has been a wonderful & blessed journey?

I just feel very content and blessed now (:

Like I always have ; very-much-earlier-kind-of-lately

Just that the actual realization is pretty recent

That's about it :D

Ttfn!

P.S:

My entry for the College's Photography competition was chosen & exhibited today!

I.R.Many.Happy ♥

my entry for the photography competition ; macro is love (:

Enjoy!♥

I hope it screams at you

2010-09-20T21:22:00.002+08:00

this is currently on my desktop screen wallpaper (:

Doesn't it just scream the message that I'm trying to convey?

Haha kidding :D

oh gard, why won't homework die? ):

Q&A

2010-09-18T02:31:00.006+08:00

Song: Kings and Queens - 30 Seconds to Mars

Mood:

My big question of the day

Am I working hard enough?

Is hard work getting to me?

Whatever it is. . .

And that ain't a lie.

I desperately need a prescription!

2010-09-16T19:01:00.003+08:00

Song: -
Mood:

Doctor! I desperately need a prescription, of nothing but motivation!

I've been feeling lazy and lethargic!
This results in me being angry at myself ; but of course I'm not very happy with some other things as well.

I had a week long holiday.

What I did during the holidays so far:

Friday : Lepak at Khai's house & movies with Nikki and Wilson

Saturday : Go back Taiping & homework

Sunday : Came back from Taiping & homework

Monday : House chores & homework

Tuesday : Go to Bentong

Wednesday : Come back from Bentong

Thursday : Material hunting

What else I'll do with my leftover days:

Friday : Anime marathon at Wilson's

Saturday : CSAP day 1

Sunday CSAP day 2

Zomd. 1 week of holiday isn't enough

Especially with my workload

1 sketch model of the invitation card with actual materials

2 sketchs of the layout of the invitation card (can't be too hard can it? )

1 layout of an 18 visual journal entries ( somebody shoot me now )

Organize an Anti-Smoking campaign ( seriously, shoot me.)

Okay workloads asideeeeeeeeeeeee

Ima talk about how my holiday's been so far

So for my holiday's been a memorable one (:

Its been really happening and I've enjoyed every one of my outings and trips

BUT

At the end of the day when I get home, I get beeps and messages from people asking me about homework and club activities

And honestly, its really getting to me

I'm seriously not good at doing multiple jobs

Especially when pressure is included in it (eg. the campaign)

I don't know what I'm suppose to do ; yet I believe I'd get through this never ending pressure-rama

Its just so taxing & its draining my stamina & determination to do my homework.

Oh well, its better to get it done and over with than to prolong and dread about it!

I can't wait to watch it disappear (:

The moment I wanna relive right now

Is the moment when I sank underwater, sitting in the corner of the pool

Nothing is going through my mind and I'm just so focused in holding my breath

Nothing to worry about. No homework troubles & club dramas.

Just me thinking how long I can hold my breath and stay underwater

And when I've run out of breath, I go back up to the surface of the water to be greeted by the people who've I encountered in my life

These people who I call my friends and also my family (:

People who'd hand me the towel when I need it xD

Haha I'm pathetic. But that's just me (:

The week's gonna be a long one.

All I need now is motivation!

Yarn ; all the good stuff rolled up together!

2010-09-05T00:16:00.002+08:00

Song: Nothing But Love - Trading Yesterday
Mood:

So many things happened but my greatest joy honestly would be going back to college

Tho I groan and make noise about having to wake up early and try to magically make my workload disappear

But its nothing like going back to school and get something done!

Haha. PMS-ing feeling :P

Anyways, I GOT MY RESULTS!!

Just got them yesterday (:

And for the first time ; I got an A for my overall

Project Class : A

Drawing Class : A

Critical Study : A

English : B

My previous Semester 3 I got a B for my overall so yeah ; I IMPROVED!!

And hopefully, in semester 3 I'll do even better (:

So about my workload

Its a pretty big pile, but I guess all I have to do now is not procrastinate and work consistently

My first task is to do a research on ISA and do an outline O:
But this is a group work

Hopefully I'll get it done by next week?

Fingers crossed!

Second task is my drawing class project which takes a month long to complete

I'm suppose to make a visual journal based on a theme I choose

And my topic would be "Asian Heritage Building and Modern Concept Building In Malaysia"

Haha, sorry but I'm really into old things

I like knowing my roots and shoots (:

They're grown from good beans!

And last but not least, my 3rd task which requires me to create a creative looking invitation card

Based on my interest ; traveling

Yes people. I'll be making an invitation card to go backpacking!

Hahaha, ideas in my head.
Blueprint's in my hands.

Time to execute the idea and give it life!

The book fair's tomorrow

I'll be shopping for interior design magazine and some travel magazine to aid me in my projects (:

Well I don't got a choice ; I needs them D:

Oh wells O:

Till then!

And the days just keeps getting better ♥

Like, oh mai gard!?

2010-09-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

Song: Lollipop - Framing Hanley
Mood:

Is it me or is semester 3 gonna be a good semester?

Hahaha I don't know (:

But all I know is that today was another awesome day

Prolly cause yesterday was an awesome day too

Teehee ♥

Haha ignore me :P

So why am I happy today

Its 'causeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *drumrolls*

Angela & Aaron are together!

What? *gasp!* They are!? O:

Yes dear world they are ♥

Haha, I pray they'd find happiness throughout their relationship (:

They're so adorable when they explained their relationship to me

Both of them were blushing badly tho Angela was trying to be really steady (;

Aaron's face was as red as his shirt!

Such a cute odd couple!

They have my blessings in whatever they'll be going through in life two.gather

Oh mai gard, I feel damn lame xD

Haha when they told me about the news

I can't stop cheering loudly and act all weird ( in a good way )

Hahahaha

My happiness for them is just too much I guess O:

Eat.Pray.~~Love~~Eat More!

Lol sorry; random (:

I feel like I'm flying. ♥

Hahaha.

I guess its a good thing?

Till then (:

Today's a good day!

Surprise me!!! :D

I should get a DSLR ♥

Dictionary.

2010-09-01T00:22:00.002+08:00

Song: Don't Trust Me - 3 Oh! 3
Mood:

I'm happy today C:

Define happy.

happy definition :
1. feeling, showing, or expressing joy; pleased
2. willing; I'd be happy to show you around
3. causing joy or gladness
4. fortunate; lucky the happy position of not having to work
5. aptly expressed; appropriate a happy turn of phrase
6. (postpositive) Informal slightly intoxicated

Yep. I'm definitely happy today C:

Semester 3 starts tomorrow. I wonder if I should look forward to it O:

Hmm...

reeeeeeeport!

2010-08-30T18:32:00.003+08:00

Song: Dr.Huxtable - Mercy Mercedes
Mood:

Just came back from Ipoh today ; was there since Friday

It was an awesome trip

We lived in Wayne's grandparents cute wooden house

Its just so nostalgic

Wayne though I was weird for complimenting his grandparents house being nice

But well, its something that's turning extinct!

Err...the wooden house I mean

Stepping into it somehow warps me back to the time where my parents were a little boy and girl

Growing up in a stress free and less hectic environment

When cycling alone was okay, hanging out in parks were cool and everyone was close with each other

What a life that was but well, there's always a plus and minus for everything (:

So the girls slept in a room big enough to fit in 2 single beds and 5" extra to put our luggages xD

The guys room were slightly bigger and according to Bianca, that room is haunted O_o"

Lol what we did was we eat and eat and eat and go sight seeing

One of the sight seeing place would be Sam Poh Tong and 3 other temples

And also Kellies Castle, which is famous cause its incomplete and its haunted?

On my second day there, I went and meet up with my aunt who took me back to grandma and grandpa's place

The surprised plan failed lol

My aunt had to tell grandma that she's bringing someone over

Aunt : I'm bringing someone over
Grandma : Who

Aunt : My boyfriend

Grandma : You!? Boyfriend (LOL-ing)!? You're so reserved xD I bet you're bringing Phei Fang over

Aunt : -_-" what was that about. And yeah (:

My aunt told me that that made my grandma's day after all that she's been through looking after grandpa who's got a stroke

I was warmly welcomed by them , especially grandpa who seemed really happy to see me

I joked with him and its good to see that he's improving

Then again, these kinda things are really unpredictable like the weather

I really hope his condition continues to improve

And what did I learned in Taiping?

I learned how to make French toast!

Phei Fang's cooking skill has leveled up by 1

Current cooking skill level : 3

Lol, I'm a failed cook xD

After that I went back to Ipoh and meet up with my friends

We watched The Murderer which is somewhat like the Cantonese version of The Orphan O:

What else did I learn in Ipoh

I learned how to play a 3 player mah jong game C:

Oh well, I'm hungry now.

Time to eat. Till then.

Since I'm awake (:

2010-08-25T04:20:00.002+08:00

Haha. I should really consider saving up for a DSLR.

Seeing the beautiful world through the lens of a camera ♥

Not just any camera dearies, its a DSLR!

Bear with me and my materialistic cravings.

I'm just a person, am I not?

Teehee.

The Woes of An Art Student.

2010-08-24T16:31:00.003+08:00

Song: In My Head - Jason Derulo
Mood:

Its like day, I don't-know-what-of-my-holidays and honestly, I'm bored out of my mind lol.

Oh the woes of an art student

Going down to Ipoh to eat, eat and EAT!

Not to mention visit my aunt and see my grandparents

My aunt plan on surprising my grandparents with my visit.

Gosh, its been ages since I last saw them

I just realize, I miss them so much ):

I should make something for them xD

Other than that, hmm... been hanging out with Khai, Wilson and Nikki.

Awesome random bunch xD

I still think orange is such a weird colour to colour coordinate with.

Then again, everyone looked good in orange xD

Zomd, me and my random post.

Tralalala.

That's about it!

Till then xD

Counting the days.

2010-08-20T15:11:00.003+08:00

Song: Wedding Dress ( English Cover ) - Kevin Lien
Mood:

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

First post after weeks of no updates.

So what have I been up to ; plenty.

Why have I not been posting ; lazy.

Hehehe.

Well just so you know my semester break just stared C:

Happy happy days

But its only for like a few days, about 9 days or so.

I think its enough? I don't know

I just am content that I'm given holidays! xD

I see a sleeping marathon coming up!

Aiyah, I honestly don't know what to blog about

OHH OHHH my car is coming back tomorrow!!

:D Happy happy day

I guess what I'm gonna do during the holiday is go out, have fun and ~~gain weight!~~

Haha not to mention improve my drawing and observation skills

WITH MY NEW SKETCHBOOK!

I'm such a freak C:

I wonder how's Shar doing :/

Oh and what I've learned so far

Is that procrastinating never pays.

Learned it the hard way

Took me like 3 months to realize it haha

Why the sudden realization?

Cause, I got tired of staying up the night before the deadline and get bombard with new homework after the submission.

So I might as well work hard, sleep late at the beginning

Then towards the end, I can slow down a little bit cause my work is almost finishing

The best part is ; LAUGH AT THOSE WHO AREN'T DONE!

Haha kidding.

Of course not, cause I was one of them!

Can't wait for the new semester to start haha.

New subjects to learn and new things to explore!!

But for now, I'll just take my time and slowly count my days away till the next semester begins C:

TILL THEN!!

Out of the jungle ; into the concrete jungle

2010-07-26T22:32:00.003+08:00

Song: In My Heart - My Favourite Highway
Mood:

Back from Pulau Tioman

2 words : Pure awesomeness!

Haha I guess that almost sum up how the trip was

7 hours on the bus ; excluding the 1 hour stop

3 hours in the ferry ; excluding the 1 hour wait at the jetty

We've already come to day 2

Day 1 was the 7 hours bus trip xD

Day 2 was just exploring the island, walking on the beach

For me? I was getting back the 2 weeks of sleep that I've lost xD

But I did go for strolls and stuff

I was just bone tired.

Day 3 went snorkelling

Awesome experience but sad to see that there weren't much colourful corals

Tho I saw amazingly big and colourful fishes

And there was this island with soft, flour-like sand

Got a bit of tan from here since we snorkelled from 10am to 4pm

Day 4 which is today

Since my family are busy busy people

We took the plane back and its not MAS nor Air Asia

It was just some small propeller plane

To get to the airport we have to take the boat first

Some small cute yellow boat that sounded like it was about the fall apart cause of the wind

Haha it was plain awesome having salty sea breeze in my hair

So nice and cooling

After that we just went to a small airport and waiting for the propeller plane!

Yes propeller plain

The one with the fan like turning thingy

Hahaha. I miss the sea breeze and the cold chilly weather

BUT

There's nothing in this world that I miss more than home and Skittles

Little Miss Furball got tired too having to go on really long walks with the babysitter xD

Till then :D

4 days

2010-07-23T19:09:00.001+08:00

Song: If I had you - Adam Lambert
Mood: Fruit punch :D

4 days of nothingness...Hmm, something I gotta adjust to

4 days without Skittles ; something I'll never get used to

I'm already starting to miss her so much

)':

I hope time will fly really fast

On hiatus since forever C:

Finally I can read the book Khai lend me lol!

sayshu?

2010-07-21T18:16:00.002+08:00

Song: Platinum Blind - Rooster
Mood:

Just got back from college and like it was one rocky day.

I went to class sleepy, went to lunch angry and came back to class happy.

Weird ; maybe I'm PMS-ing lol

Got stuck on the lift on the way back with Aaron and Evon

We're up on the 7th floor then it suddenly stopped ._.

Arararara. But it was fun C:

Haha yes being stuck in the lift is fun ♥

Work keep on piling up which is why I haven't been blogging

Another reason why I haven't been blogging its cause I'm just too lazy xD

Aren't we all?

I really gotta get rid of that habbit

Just submitted my project 2 on Monday, and I've got to start on my 3rd project yesterday which is space design

I got rambutan )': Boohoo

Tho I must admit it's pretty fun

Arararara. Skitanator ♥

Hello you :D

2010-07-12T18:23:00.003+08:00

Song: I'll Be Fine (piano version) - Stevie Hoang
Mood:

I got bored so I decided to just write something here O:

So damn lazy to update.

I r hungry.

That's about life C:

No time to be sober ; instead be stronger

2010-06-29T17:53:00.006+08:00

Song: Save Your Heart - Mayday Parade

Mood: -

It happened because it was meant to happen. Don’t regret it, learn from it.

Even tho I felt shaken and angry at myself

I should be thankful that everything was fine and learn from it

I was given a second chance at living ; an eye opening experience

I should stop being sober and get over it

Even tho the vision still haunts me ; I'll try my very best to look pass that incident.

What's the occasion?

2010-06-29T01:34:00.002+08:00

28/ 6 / 2010

How can I forget this day?

What I look on the outside ; doesn't reflect what's on the inside

2010-06-25T18:49:00.002+08:00

Song: With You - Goodnight Sunrise
Mood:

Self portrait is fun but hard to do ; unfortunately

When I draw, I look completely DEFORMED

They say artist are emotional creatures ; far more emotional that an average human being

And they often draw how the felt

Prolly I looked far from what I actually look like cause ; I'm a very bitter an ugly person O:

Overall life's been rough with its work cause of me, procrastinating again

But I'm coping well, doing fine and realize that my interest in arts has grown deeper

Sadly its bending more towards the Graphic Design & Fine Arts than Interior Architecture

But I still have that passion of designing and creating a comfortable space for people to live in

Maybe I should be an Interior Architecture lecturer & do fine arts part time?

Me and my dreams.

Meanwhile to achieve that I gotta work hard ; really really hard

Nothing is gonna stop me!

Tho I do get brain dead and lost determination

And sometimes do break down and cry cause I sometimes feel like everything I do is in vain

But I'll regain back my confidence and move forward

Life isn't about giving up but getting up and moving forward!

Even if some shit appears right in front of me ; I won't let its foul smell get to me!

Besides I've got some things to look forward to

Things to look forward to :-

#1 ) Shar's visit in August ( Prolly she'll come ; hopefully! )

#2) Steamboat party / sleepover

#3) Badminton game C:

Arararara. Life C:

Behind the wheel

2010-06-18T19:07:00.006+08:00

Song: 2gether 4ever - Clubraiders Edition
Mood:

Got my P driver's license which means I can now drive C:
For the first time driving after my getting my P license I guess you can say I scared the crap out of my mom & dad

Only skittles wasn't scared instead she enjoyed the ride :D

So tomorrow, I'll take on the high way to college tomorrow ; creepy

Had presentation yesterday uber nervous ; but I guess it went well?

Other than that, life's been misleading in many way but I manage to get through C:

Picture of the day : Skittles with a ribbon C:

I wonder how's Shareen :/

I'm at peace

2010-06-15T15:26:00.007+08:00

Song: Heal The World - Michael Jackson
Mood:

Sorry haven't been updating my blog cause I've been really busy ; and I really mean busy

But that's over , for the moment

Handed up my previous project and that felt really good

Knowing that there's some time for me to slow down and take a breather

I've been having anxiety and stress lately ; now's the time for me to regain my conciousness

Apart from that, I just turned 18 yesterday

Ahaha.Received lots of birthday wishing and smses even from the person that I least expect to wish me

You're prolly thinking I had a grand slammed birthday party to celebrate my legalization in age ; no more underage.

Well if you thought that way, sorry but you're wrong

What I did yesterday was very normal ; nothing extraordinary

I first went out at 6.30am for my driving exam

Came home and do my work

Had lunch and then continued my work

Then had dinner and did work till 3.30am

Ordinary much.

Well it really is just another day to me

Some people get offended when some people don't wish them cause to them that day is really special

But to me its just another 14th day in the month of June but of a different year

So I'm not really bothered if no one wishes me ; not to be ungrateful but that's how I personally feel.

I just give thanks to God for allowing me to be in this world and feel happy that some people actually remembered C:

But I felt really happy when people wished me, its like my motivator so I somehow felt more motivated yesterday

And I didn't have cake for my birthday ; I've stop having cake on my birthday since the age of 6

No don't sympathize me it was my wish

There's a reason why I didn't want cake

When we're young we're really small eaters so the cake goes to waste

And somehow when I think about cake on my birthday it makes me sad cause it triggers an event that happened at that time

I won't go on talking about it

I'll just leave you hanging in suspense C:

Apart from that, I'm very content with my birthday

Oh did I mention , I passed my driving exam C:

Ahaha best birthday gift ever!

But its still pending tho, but I remember those 3 ticks in the lulus box C:

Please let me officially pass T_T

Another project managed to seep into my life

6 posters to produced based on the music I'm currently listening to

I should get some shut eye right now

Till then C:

Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes!

Mixed media.

2010-06-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

Song: -
Mood:

As you can see, I feel mixed up today

3 emotions happening at once

Let me explain C:

I feel happy cause:

1) I went to the national art gallery which was extremely awesome . Shed some light on me for my heritage painting.

2) Went out and eat with Caroline's gang and my gang. Who says we aren't united huh? Btw 8 people can fit into 1 myvi, trust me. I was in that situation C:

3) I went out to play badminton with my old classmates. Totally kick ass! Its good to see them again C:

I feel sad and angry cause:

1) Someone annoyed me , and its someone I didn't like.

2) I had to finish my character design and its packaging in 4 days.

3) I got bruises on my index fingers and thumbs ; damn the wires

4)Clay is actually not that fun to play with D:

Arararara.

That's all for today.

Clay and wire ; not a happy marriage

Instead of ranting I should be grateful

2010-06-11T00:09:00.003+08:00

Song: Perfect 2 - Auburn
Mood:

Instead of getting cooked up about such things I should first analyse myself

I'm not perfect ; I don't do things right

Sometimes I come late and can't open the class

I've awesome friends who'd comfort me when I'm mad or sad

I've got an awesome sister, brother,mother and dad

Life's been great so far

Doing the course I love and hope to be passionate about

Parents who acknowledge my skill and encourage me with what I do

Tho there were disapprovals at first but they let me do it in the end

Tho some suckers may get in the way I've got enough good memories to get me going

People still hang out with me even tho I've got a weird way carrying myself

I'll sleep well tonight C:

Sorry for the early ranting.

We Start to lose control

2010-06-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

Song: Tonight - FM Static
Mood:

Today seemed really messed up for me

I don't know why lah

Just seeing people that I don't like practically destroys my day

Like how these couple keep giving away free show

So much PDA, touch here touch there

I'm not jealous ; seriously why would I be?

But it makes me sick as I've got to go through the cafeteria everyday

And them greeting me with their make out session seriously throws me overboard

Cafeteria = Eat

Simple life equation that lay man can get?

But why can't they?

Seriously, get a room. Its good for both parties

So today I was given 10 mins to finish the presentation outline

Which was rather crucial cause no outline means no attendance

So I went to the free access computer lab looking for a vacant computer

I found one right at the very corner

So I turned the thing on only to realize that its already on ; silly me

Slide the mouse across the table and a message poped up

"This computer has been locked by . . ."

Wtf?

Wtfh was that about!?

I've got 10 mins to finish that shit and you're doing this to me?

And I know who the mingling retard is ; loafing around in the cafeteria

Happily chatting away , skipping class

I don't see any reason for that person to even lock the computer

ITS FOR PUBLIC USE!

Maybe its too bad that I came late but still, a school property shouldn't be treated that way

sonofabitch

Thankfully I managed to get in done on time

And when that person came back

I practically glared at that person ; like wtf seriously I was mad

I needed 10 mins to get the thing done and you're gone for 15mins!

thankyouforyourthoughfulnessdouchebag.

If you're not using the computer to do your research then leave it vacant for people who needs it

Unless Bollywood actor and actress' status and biography is considered as homework.

I highly doubt it is

When I got back to class to queue to get my outline checked my 'class rep' told me "Hey Phei Fang, you gotta go last"

Me: Wtf? Why?

idiot: Cause you're the class rep and I'm just the assistant. So you have to close up the class.

Me:That's a load of bullshit. Stop talking when your mouth is full of shit!

Like wtf seriously.

All this while he was credited to be a class rep

But the thing is I'm the class rep but everyone took me as an assistant ; fine whatever I'm not really bothered

He just have to photocopy notes and create excuses if there's any exam and etc.

Err...spoiledoldbratmuch?

There's once I told him that sometimes he got to open the door

I can't always be doing the work right?

And you know what he said

"You're Evon's best friend so you have to stay back to close the door"

How how the hell is that related?

Gahhhhhhhh! Messed up situation that I have to tolerate...

Looking on the bright side ; atleast he doesn't ask for money when we ask him to print stuff.

Signing off to take a chill pill

6 more months to put up with this shit.

Materialistic Beliefs

2010-06-07T20:25:00.004+08:00

Song: -
Mood:

Went out to One Utama today with my family after class

We're supposed to watch Iron Man 2 today

BUT ; I booked the wrong tickets

I booked IP Man 2 instead ; zomd epic fail.

So we thought of watching Shrek 4 instead but the thing was full so we resorted to Prince of Persia which turned out to be good O:

Anyways, after that we went 'window' shopping

Ima confess ; I'm partially a shopaholic

I give in to what I see and will develop a wanting for that thing ; its not a need trust me

And then I'll tell myself "I need it" which then results to me in buying it

But I always spend within my means ; does not include food

And I'm a monster for brands

Tho sometimes I give into counterfeit products ; but it completely depends

Still I'm more of a monster of brands ; and it hurts to know we're paying more for the brand

Yet I'll narrow it down to if it's worth buying , is the material good, is there sales

Ahaha, I know tommies shouldn't have such cravings

But well C:

Its the circle of life.

I'll just face the fact that everyone has a certain desire for things ; we're all materialistic creatures

But sometimes, our materialistic 'needs' somehow motivate us to work hard (&spend more)

Well that's how I personally feel because...

I so 'need' a Radley bag.

Average cost RM 300 and that's the bare minimum

But its too cute to resist , not to mention the material is leather I guess

So I gotta work hard to reward myself ; in the future C:

Ararara ♥

Some of the Radley bags that I saw and liked

I guess these are the ones within the range from RM400 - RM700

Killer prices I know...

Large Across Body Baby Bag @ £95.00

Godalming Large Hobo Tote @ £155.00

I like how their trademark is a dog and every bag has that really cute key chain

Like Kipling C:

I like the first bag tho ; so multi-purpose looking C;

And its a sling bag ♥

The second one is just so cute and round ♥

Muahaha ; I know what I'm gonna spend on with my first pay check

#1 - Family & Skittles

#2 - Shar if she comes to M'sia again

#3 - Radley bags ; only one tho C:

#4 - Friends

That's about it I guess ; just ranting cause

I WANT THOSE BAGS!?

Till then C:

*Prays classes got cancelled for at least 3 weeks*

Rather impossible ; but I believe in the possibilities C:

Electric Daisy

2010-06-06T23:06:00.003+08:00

Song: Untitled ( My First Acid Trip Mix ) - Khai's brother :|

Mood:

Muahaha, in the midst of doing my work

I'm partially slacking and reading Dengeki Daisy

Its so cute and I just can't help but read it D:

Link to the awesome manga ; Electric Daisy

It sucks that its not completed yet ; I hate suspense :C

Till then C:

Daisies are hawt , Sunflowers are hawter C;

KYUUUUUUUUUU!

2010-06-03T20:20:00.004+08:00

Song: -
Mood:

Yay! So happy!♥♥

My classmates all chipped in to celebrate me and my friend's birthday C:

Caroline's birthday is also on the 14th of June ♥♥

Its awesome to have the same birthday as someone

Its a privilege!

Rawr, they made me and her 10days earlier older :C

But its okay, A YEAR OLDER A YEAR WISER!

I'm an optimist C:

Next friday we'll have this field trip to the national art gallery

WOHOO!!!!!!!!!

So excited! C:

Before those good things ; I'll still have to go through my driving exams

whatadrag.

I won't let that get to me!

FIGHTING!

I'm an optimist! ~~&hardworking!~~

Oh well, just an optimist is good enough C:

Till then

A virus I call GUILT

2010-06-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

Song: I'm a Wonder - The Cab
Mood:

As hard as I try to forget things ; I just can't

I'm taken aback although things seem clearer to me

At the same time it seems really vague as well

Argh! I'm really caught up in between

I've asked what I've wanted to ask

Try to clear both parties names

Been revealed the truth yet , there's still something that I just can't comprehend

I'm a messed up person who just think too much.

Progress of the rehab : Nothing changed , other than more people are crumbling apart

. . .

LIKE COOKIES! C:

I'm just so messed up.

Going mad, gone mad.

I really have to do something or talk to someone vocally.

Then I wouldn't have to think so much about that stuff

Well I'll just try to forget it on my own.

Let sleeping dogs lie.

Thinking of happy things.

Thinking of happy things ; I'm trying.

Thinking of happy things ; seriously I'm really trying.

I wanna scribbledraw&paint my problems away.

Can you hear that? That's the sound of my bone cracking )':

2010-05-31T21:44:00.003+08:00

Song: Anthem of Our Dying Day - Story of the Year

Mood:

Arararara. Back ache :C

Kinda regret studying on my tummy last time ; the cause of this wretched back ache.

Anyways, the progress of my life is at the moment...nil?

Maybe? C:

Ararararara.

Why am I here again when I've got nothing to report?

C: Teehee

I just wish that this character design project would just end ; for the moment.

Hey, L

Made you look C;

Zomd I'm so lame C:

Spill it out ; even if it means choking your guts out

2010-05-28T21:34:00.003+08:00

Song: Dear Maria - All Time Low
Mood:

Sorry for the gory tittle 'cause I dunno :P

I'm random

Some series of events had happened

I WENT TO REHAB!

Well not exactly

Its just that my lecturer wasn't too happy about the class' unity

Oh come on, I'm pretty much workable and united with anyone

Its how close I am with them is another question

I mean I can get along with everyone and compromise

I can't be like icky sticky and gooey with someone right?

So yeah back to 'rehab'

My lecturer thought by confessing to the person who we've got problems with it might bring us closer and not more back talks

Yeah she's right so everyone one by one confessed

First introduce yourself, who you don't like and why, and what do you think of the class

Rehab much

While waiting for my turn ; actually I wanted to go to the wash room lah

So I waited anxiously

Prolly people think I was nervous cause I keep moving about O:

Then came my turn

So yeah I first gotta introduce myself

BUT instead I heave a sigh and then

"Hi umm... Actually I want to go to toilet wan" with my super Chinesey slang xD

Then everyone start bursting out in laughter

Yeah once that's over ; the laughing part

I went and tell who I didn't like and why

First of was Ruveena

Reason was cause she didn't like work with us properly

She went and do things on her own

Forgot the fact that its a group work

So I told her "It was a group work, you should know that we're ready to work with you"

And well, I'm actually okay with her now

Cause she changed ; cause the whole class isolated her :/

So that's actually not very nice

And I sincerely apologised

I confessed I was one of them who didn't like her

I guess she forgave me ; I hope

Second was Priya

Reason was SHE KEEP DELAYING US

When I gave her 12 pieces of cardboard to do

She brought back 6

And not even 1 was done!

Lol I was really agitated when I had to say that

'Cause she really did NOTHING

I mean NOTHING

it took her like 1 hour plus to just trace something ; YES TRACE

So yeah I didn't apologise to her cause I dunno?

I didn't do anything to her ; or so I thought till its her turn

So it was Priya's turn to confess

And she said she didn't like Ruveena

Her reason was cause Ruveena said she didn't like give her anything to do and then Ruveena tell everyone that Priya didn't do anything

Come to think of it what Ruveena said is true O:

Then later another person she didn't like was me and Evon

Cause of the way we promoted Rotaract was inappropriate

Uhh...Excuse me!?

Me promoting it inappropriately?

I was relatively dumbfounded

Then she pointed out that me and Evon said only Chinese Girls can join that club

Me and Evon just stared at each other ; we're absolutely stunned

Vivian stared at me like I was magically sprouting mushroom all over my head

I was seriously mad, and offended by what she said cause first of all

I NEVER said the club was only open to Chinese girls

Like seesh, I'm not fcking racist here!

If I'm racist , Sahan and Dimitri wouldn't even be my dads!?

Then she started to get teary and said how we force her to resigned from the job that she love which was being a secretary.

I practically LOL-ed in my head

Cause what she said was practically ; in my opinion

"Guano" quoted from Khai

She was the most unreliable and irresponsible secretary

She does her job half heartedly

My club president wanted to fire her by a zillion times cause she doesn't do her job

And if I'm racist ; I wouldn't even beg for her to get her a second chance

She said the reason she resigned was cause of the 'only Chinese' thing

Seesh, I'm offended really

You're saying me racist?

But you resigned cause the club's majority is Chinese

So you tell me ; is it me who's racist or YOU?

Anyways, I've yet to talk to my club president about this cause I need to know if the reason she gave him and to the class tallies

If it isn't I'll get even ; actually no

I'm not really bothered

Cause I don't wanna stoop down to her level

I'm too awesome for that ; and that's a fact

Lol just kidding (:

But I'll think of something to clear my name

In the mean time , I'll just do my best to beat her at everything academic wise

And I never knew Priya and Michelle was so defensive and offended by the Kap thingy

Gosh, and they called us childish

Its just for fun ; deal with it

Cause of them we gotta disband the Kap thingy ):

Oh well...there people who are just too 'cool' for this kinda thing

Thanksalotmofos

I'm hungry ; for power (:

A ring full of shaved ice makers

2010-05-23T21:00:00.003+08:00

Song: Ocean and Atlantic - Mayday Parade
Mood:

Went out to Sunway Pyramid with Shaun , Darren, Max and etc.

It was odd at first cause I was the only girl

But I kinda got used to it along the way

The weirder part was that Darren, Jonathan and Sze Yang who's my secondary schoolmates never saw me before ( nor have I saw Darren before)

So I guess you can say they're rather shocked when they knew that I was in the same school as them before

Practically I spent most of my time in the ice ring with Shaun

Was rather scary at first since I never knew how to ice skate

Hahaha. I was literally verbally abusing my poor pet brother who's trying so hard to keep me cool

Well I don't wanna fall and get my pants wet and hurt my bum

But too late for that cause I've already got a bruise on my knee from falling

But in the end I had a blast (:

I learned how to skate! ; amatureishly

Well, will try to improve on the next visit with KAP members maybe O:

Guess I'm going to bed now. So darn tired

Thanks Max and Shaun for today's outing.

I had a blast seriously.

Tho I feel relatively bad that they keep paying for my stuff :/

Today's a fairytale , Tomorrow's a true story

2010-05-21T21:36:00.002+08:00

Song: Hollywood Undead - This Love This Hate

Mood: Fatigued, Stressed

So I've gone back to college ; since Tuesday

And zomd the workload is INSANE!

I used to have time to procrastinate ; now I don't

I now miss my 1 week of nothingness )':

Day 1 of college and we're given projects to do

No line exercises, no cut and paste

The first project is character design ; it may sound fun but when its restricted it just isn't

I got Cheetah and Salvador Dali

Gotta research deeply about the Cheetah and Dali

Then we've got to document the findings like making mind maps and elaborating how the structure is working ; yadayada.

Then there's packaging design, character combination, colour combination & etc.

Did I mention that I've to make the character and packaging?

Sewing and moulding the clay is gonna take up 90% of my life.

Due date : 14th June 2010

Project 2 ; actually it isn't a project more of a report on something we researched on

A 1600 - 1800 word essay on a product that has evolved through time

Sounds easy? Finding sources is the challenge not writing it

This I have to remember not to procrastinate.

Last minute essays are a big NO NO

Due date : 11th August 2010 @ 9am

Project 3 which I received today is a killer!

5 Sketches of different composition about anything that's related to Malaysian heritage

At first he asked us to do 20 sketches ; zomfd!

1 A2 size final composition

Technique used ; lecturers will choose

Silk screen, monoprint, charcoal drawing, acrylic painting, oil painting, drypoint, wood block printing, watercolour painting, mix media ; choose your kill.

Obviously the one that's time consuming will give you the best kind of print ; watercolour would be the ultimate potential killer. Oh noes!

Due date : 4th June 2010

Yes it does Komui ; yes it does. I feel your pain )':

Going out with Shaun and Darren and a bunch of other guys this Sunday

Feel rather insecure but I trust that Shaun and Darren would protect me if anything happens (:

One day of break wouldn't hurt ; would it?

Till then (:

Oh the irony to this catastrophe!

2010-05-17T18:21:00.002+08:00

Song: Daft Punk - Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger
Mood:

Today just isn't my day ; I hate mondays!

I failed my driving on the inside, why?

I didn't do balancing right...

Argh! The agony and anxiety and depression!

I'll have to retake my driving exam on the 14th June

Yes! 14th June.

I'm so gonna hate 14th June...

Wait, I already hate it!

Assignment due date and retake of driving exam

Ahahaha. Life sucks.

No, testing for licence sucks.

)': Nothing's going my way

I'm done ranting!

Time to chow away the misery and cry my failure over coffee.

My life is as wasted as the days that went by

2010-05-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

Song: Where the City Meets the Sea - The Getaway Plan
Mood:

Gosh, I can't believe its Tuesday already

And what have I done so far ; nil

Absolutely nothing.

My plans for the week were screwed up, well can't blame anyone really

Some things just have to happen so yeah

And apparently my driving instructor suddenly RESIGNED

But well they replaced him with another one which I think is better

I won't go into details why he's better

And I just realized, omfd I can't remember the parallel parking technique that the previous instructor taught me

But thankfully, I found it on the internet :D

The method that is

Thank you Google

I can't help but sit down and sigh on how mundane and boring my holiday is

I can't go out cause it clashes with my sibling's tuition time

I've got no driver's license ; another reason why I can't go out

Omg. I'm fermenting D: like a bad tofu!

How do I actually spend my day?

Good question, its pretty much NON-EDUCATIONAL

I wake up late, eat breakfast, watch tv, use the laptop, nap....etc

You get the picture

Not very healthy

I wanted to go cycling and then walk the dog but apparently mother nature has to mess up my plans too

Oneeeeeeeeeeeee day

One day I'll fulfil that duty of cycling and taking the dog for a walk muahahaha

Okay, looks like the fermentation process is getting to my head ; not good

I guess that's all I want to rant about

Till then (:

Gosh...Not only am I craving for KFC whipped potatoes but also Domino's thin crust BBQ Chicken ):

So hungry right now D:

My playlist is as messed up as me

2010-05-07T18:12:00.002+08:00

Song: Haru haru - Big Bang
Mood:

Wokay, one week of holiday

Things to do plenty

Fully charged after ummm 17 hours of sleep

Haha, temporary hibernation (:

Time passed pretty slowly today ; I wonder why

And I just found out that Chanti changed her number

I'm left with no address, no email, no skype ID to even contact her

Sighs...

What am I to do ):

This totally sucks

Tomorrow I'll be sending a friend of to Banting

Its just a farewell breakfast party

I guess I'll go and represent myself, shar and chanti

Then Monday is shoe hunting

Wednesday , driving lessons

And Thursday is Kap Bentung trip :D

I'll be back on Saturday for that trip

So much to look forward to ♥ (:

I guess life doesn't suck so much

Haha, I doubt I'll say that when semester 2 starts

Back to my manga

Inubaka ♥

I'll run into your arms now ; Mr.Pillow ♥

2010-05-06T13:55:00.004+08:00

Song: Halo - Glee cast
Mood:

I'm so happy that I don't know how to start this post

Actually, I'm more of tired than happy

Semester break is finally here

And before I go about feeling sad thinking about the things I'd miss during semester 1

I want to just, give this tiny pea-brained contained head a break

As you can see I've not been sleeping well

And I wanna thank Khai SO MUCH

For accompanying me till dawn

Haha, distractions are my caffeine

And also my Kap members for being such loving and caring friends (:

This is what Evon texted to me ; but I was busy asleep so I didn't reply her :P

This is an order to cup 1 (me)

You are required to obey it 99.99%

PLEASE GO AND HAVE A BEST SLEEP BEFORE YOU ON YOUR COMPUTER , and do other work (:

Thanks for obeying the rule

Note : If you don't obey, I tak tau what will happen to you on Thursday

Haha. Goodnight (:

Love my friends especially my kap members and my besties ♥

Yesterday I went to One Utama to watch Ip Man 2 with my Kap members + Khai

The movie kick ass!

A must watch ; especially for kung fu fanatics!

Right, honestly I'm too lazy to blog

But I'm doing it for the sake of doing it ; Uhhh... I don't know what the hell did I just say

Me and my slow brain

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Good bye artworks for one week!

Handed up all my assignments ; something I really feel good about

On top of that ice cream tower, there's a bitter chocolate ; a lesson I've learned through out this semester

Which is to

NEVER

EVER

Procrastinate

It'll just kill you insanely slowly

That;s all (:

Gotta go, am at mcd blogging

Till then ♥

Of Rabbit Sized Guinea Pigs

2010-05-02T12:34:00.002+08:00

Song: Light Up The Sky - Yellowcard
Mood:

Thanks to Khai , his 'weird' fact about Guinea Pigs is my blog title for today

I've been hanging out with Stress , Anxiety and Depression lately
They're my best friends and my worst enemy (:

Haha. I'd say I'm rather relieved cause I've handed up my drawing sketch book

Did 14 extra drawings ( some are half done tho; eg. darren's anime portrait)

Sorry Darren D:

But I'll complete it when I get my sketch book back

After all those drawing, I've to archive it

It was HELL cause its like a race around the clock getting it developed last minute

That's done too!

I mailed Hell back to Hades (:

Next to complete is my History essay and A2 Sketch Book (plus archive the artwork)

I'm pretty confident that I'll finish those on time

Something that I'm temporarily bounded to ; alphabet dino project

There's no escaping that one at the moment

Later I'll be going to Angela's house to do the construction of the dino ; preparing the blueprint

Since we're all fed up of our 'veryresponsiblecreativeknowledgableinarchitecture' leader

We're taking things into our own hands

I'm not gonna waste my breath ; actually energy

To even talk / blog about her

I'll just listen to Vivien ; "we must first not hate her"

Viven is so zen :P

But Vivien is right , hating her would just kill me and not her

So I don't hate her, I just dislike her

After all, hate is a strong word :/

Yesterday went to a formal dinner

It was fun but odd cause I had to wear a dress

And someone actually wore the exact same dress I wore ):

Oh well, I think she wore it better (:

Everyone was like staring at me cause I wore the exact same dress

That's just so embarrassing and odd T_T

Oh well, enjoying ourselves at the event matters most no?

Still can't upload Danny's ninjutsu performance ; how frustrating

Some other day then :/

That's how life's been going for me

Driving 200km/hour and I'm too slow to catch up

I'll just invent some rocket shoes to keep up :P

Till then! ♥

Zomd. This is sad )':

2010-05-01T12:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks Shaun for sharing it on Facebook

This seriously is so sad ):

----------------------

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and
soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story...

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and
said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,
why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the
chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't
talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what
had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory
answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just
pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent
ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for
her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I
had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of
me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a
kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several
weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something
at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell
asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not
care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken
marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to
recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of
our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going
crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd
request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we
both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy
in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to
the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in
my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about
the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the
office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I
hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was
growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry
her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few
dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her
heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms,
walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her
hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly;
it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held
her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I
held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked
intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not
want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have
a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I
won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I
didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each
other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on
our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my
wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and
wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I
run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the
bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot
give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend
and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a
real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they
were to success when they gave up.

Let the creative juices flow

2010-04-25T12:30:00.002+08:00

Song: That 70's Song - The Cab

Mood:

I feel rather tranquil today

I wonder why?

Any ways, lately I've been buried by my coursework which are due by 3rd May 2010

The progress ; rather productive

I manage to like produce atleast 8 pictures this week (:

10 more to go to an A in my drawing sketchbook!♥

Oh well, at least I know one thing I'm good at ; drawing (:

Till then

I ♥ pencil, pen and soft pastel

I'm sorry mom for being a good for nothing daughter. I'm sorry that I can't be like lil sis. Its okay if you resented my very existances

Typography ♥

2010-04-23T00:02:00.002+08:00

Song: A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
Mood:

Oh god, this pen drawing seriously is a pain in the ass

Sprained my right hand

Ouch ):

But it'll be better; no doubt about that

Anyways, I'm really happy about my most recent manual typography artwork ♥
Will post it on deviantart when I'm doing my project archiving

Haha.

I plan on doing another typography

Let's just hope time allows me to make it real

I want an A for my drawing

I need at least 20 serious piece of drawing ):

I can do it

WE CAN DO IT SHAR!!

Back to the effed up pen drawing

I'm having rilakkuma fever ♥

♥ Typography

Time Waits for No Man

2010-04-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

Time waits for no man

So what are you doing here?

Get back to whatever work you're doing!

Father time is merciless ):

To be a better man

2010-04-17T14:54:00.002+08:00

Song: Shattered - Trading Yesterday
Mood: Sick.

Okay, I took the first step and apologised to that woman

Tho I had second thoughts about it but well, it was my mistake so I apologised

And you know what she said? "Its okay. I don't mind"

At least a "I'm sorry too" would have been better!?

Not that I expect a sorry back ; its just that I wasn't at fault alone

She had not played a role as a leader

Always secretly doing stuff without us ; leaving us jobless

And whenever there's a particular material we need to buy

She'd vanish into thin air leaving us stranded into thinking if we should buy it or not

She didn't even collect the receipt for our orientation project expenditure

No receipt = No money

So I took the receipt I used to buy materials for the dino project to COLLECT the money

Then she scolded me for buying things without her knowledge

Well, it would be PART of her knowledge if she hadn't disappeared so soon

Look, I was nice enough to not claim certain things from her okay.

Eg. hot glue gun and spray mount

Actually I don't find it a problem if she doesn't pay her portion for that two items

'Cause then I wouldn't have to lend it to her (:

Oh you wanna know something else?

She bitched about me on Facebook, MSN, Blog and also in front of her friends

Girl.. How low can you go?

It even happened right after I apologised ; as I turned away

She bitched about me in front of the guy

Haha. Seriously

And I think she even blocked me on MSN (:

Well at least I realize what I've done wrong ; noted my flaws and admit my wrong doings

Which make me , the better half! :D

Tho some people think I'm stupid for doing that

Well, at least I don't continue to put other people down to make myself feel better (:

P.S : My blog is public again. After all there's nothing to hide :D Sides its inconvenient if you actually think about it :/

What's the use of keeping it in?

2010-04-14T20:28:00.003+08:00

Song: Innocence - Avril Lavinge
Mood:

Argh. I feel terrible...

After what I did, I know I don't like HER

But what I did is just so wrong

I talked bad about her behind her back

But its her attitude that friggin annoys me

Yet, I should have kept my cool and not lose it easily ; tho it was tempting to get on her nerves :D

Still, I can't stand her attitude

When there's a chance she'd like backstab that person.

She loves to brag, brag and brag

And FLIRT...Which annoys most of my classmates &me.

Okay I'll take the first step and try to compromise with her

Apologise for the misunderstanding and stop backstabbing

After all, being mad about something isn't healthy

And regretting about what I did isn't gonna help either

SO YES. I'll be the better half

And apologised to her about the awful misunderstanding

Hopefully, I'll stop bitching about her too :/

Evacuate the Dance Floor!

2010-04-11T01:13:00.002+08:00

Song: If We Ever Meet Again - Timbaland feat Kate Perry
Mood: Ecstatic

Today I attended the District Rotaract Assembly ; DRA for short

And I must say, it's one thing I'll never forget.

I woke up, groaning and agitated 'cause I had to reach McDonald's before 7am

So I kept grumbling on how tired I was ; It wasn't just me tho

The other board members did the same (:

You can't blame us, we're tired D:

Went through the formal protocols... Made us Sleepier

Then, REFRESHMENTS! For 5 times!

Later after lunch we're separated into our respective position in the board

I went with the International Service Director

The speakers are awesome ; loved the way the presented the thing

Great, funny and they sound very convincing.

But I still felt stiff for the first session ; then when the second session came

I started mixing and met new people on the same page as me ; but from different colleges

Actually, since in the morning I met people ; shook hands that is

Haha then dinner was a 8 course meal ; stuffed as hell

Then after desert , hell broke loose

It was a dancing madness but I don't dance so I didn't (:

The rest of my board members did, my club president, vice president, club service & etc.

Haha it was funny cause everyone seem drunk

But what we all drank was only Chinese tea

Super funny!

To wrap it up, I had a wonderful time and will participate more in such events.

It's a good exercise for my social skills (:

OH I just realize that my vice president's mom used to fetch my English tuition mates and I to KL Pac.

Hahaha! Anyways love the board members, all insane & sporting people (:

Till then!~

P.S : The DRA was held in Sri Petaling, the place I lived before I moved to PJ O:

Ohhhh sweet memories as nostalgia hit me (:

Tho I didn't contact Ying Xing and Chee Kuan ; I guess I felt ashamed of myself to have lost touch with them, tho it's not completely but still ):

ONE DAY, I'll be back (:

It's a major B reaction ; its contagious

2010-04-07T17:58:00.002+08:00

Song: Breakeven - The Script
Mood:

Today is the B-iest day ever
Seriously, its happening to every group
But it's a result from one source
It's contagious.
And jeez! People, if you lack ideas ; go take a walk, a hike, a swim...Whatever?
Just don't steal ideas from other people! Idiot-_-
And isn't the main objective in art is to lure peoples attention by being creatively different?
Same theme yes ; but different idea and concept
DON'T YOU GET IT!?
And I pity Mr.D's Juniors as they have to wear her clothes O:
Scareh...
Stupid day.
When will this project end-_-

Let's dance to Super Junior!

2010-04-06T20:24:00.002+08:00

Song: Sherwood - Song In My Head
Mood:

Woot, ~~SLAVES!!~~ Uhh I mean, YAY Juniors! :D
Haha, today I met my juniors and got our orientation project theme
Using Tangrams to create a Bauhaus Style product
I'm telling you IT'S INSANE!
The worst thing is that we gotta present the project by Thursday ; Latest Friday
Not only that , because we have TOO MANY Juniors
So we have to do a short play ; after all acting is arts too
And I think today I kinda scared the juniors ; probably annoyed them too 'cause I was too friendly D:
Being friendly is a CRIME I tell you
And I saw a girl from my school O:
Freaky...
Btw I've got 40 Juniors ; freakier!
Plus all my juniors are so tall!
Especially the guys ; Major Freak Reaction!
Ahem , no I'm not short ; the world is just too big and the people are too tall (:
Sadly, not many cute junior guys ; Which is also a good thing ;D
I'm a prejudice (:
Haha, I hope everything goes well for all the groups
I hope, seeing what happened today make me hope more O:
Till then ;)

Walking on my toes

2010-04-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

Song: Baby - Justin Bieber
Mood:

Went out shopping today to buy a formal wear for my installation
Formal wear includes slacks, collared shirt and long sleeve and also HEELS
Yes heels ; painful yet they look beautiful to wear
I bought one that's like 3 inches tall?
I must be mad but that's the only pair of heel that I thought was worth buying cause the rest
Looked pathetic
Anyways, tomorrow is my class orientation project with the bound to be loved JUNIORS
Muahaha. We're all seniors now
Well, not yet super seniors.
Not super juniors either ;D
Haha, I wonder what's our project for tomorrow?
Curiosity kills (:
Okay till then!

You left me with a broken heart

2010-04-03T16:59:00.003+08:00

Song: You left Me - The Maine
Mood:

Hey hey
Been too lazy to blog after working over night
Life's been great lately ; tho there are some great misunderstanding
Life's a rocky journey 'neways
I've got another position but this time it's in a club
But I won't tell you my position cause it ain't official yet (:
So once I'm installed, I'll tell you ;D
On the other hand, my gang practically have our own nickname for each member
Haha it's pretty weird cause the idea came from a movie
Goes to show how movie can influence us
But its cool.
And lately I've been annoyed by someone
I mean like if you're in something and you promised people that you'd go for it
Don't bail out last minute ; at least give us a valid reason
And the reason should not be "It's just a waste of time"
Ugh...people
Okay gtg, am attending a funeral of my mom's best friend's

Mixed emotions

2010-03-27T18:26:00.003+08:00

Song: 初雪 - HY
Mood: Weird?

Hmm..What am I to say
I just am happy, sad, and angry at the same time
Reason why I'm feeling,

Happy : I got my internet back and I fixed my internet modem and router myself! Booyah independence! And sweet victory, internet :D

Sad : I feel unappreciated. Seriously. I feel that way. Why? Too many reasons to list. I'm done feeling this way tho this feeling is somehow crawling to the top, empowering other feelings. I feel rotten, useless and pathetic. The question "what have I done wrong" and "why is it that no one understands" keeps spinning in my head. The weight of people's expectation, especially friends heap on my shoulder like a boulder. Nothing is much more worst than betrayal and knowing you've let someone down. I mean, I'm human too!? I have my own problems to deal with. Yeah I don't mind comforting you, its just that what I say isn't good enough to you. Betrayal, tsk tsk...I guess I should be mad at myself for trusting that someone too much. Well it's time I walk pass the broken glass pieces. I'm done getting mad at that person, done feeling betrayed, tired of getting even. I only realize what I've done made me equally as bad as that person.

Angry : Everyone misunderstands me! Everyone expects to much from me. Especially my dad. Sigh. But I guess a good thing came out from that (: I guess

So I guess that explains my mixed emotions. Now time to stress myself. I've lots of work to do.
Till then (:

The feeling is mutual.

2010-03-20T12:21:00.002+08:00

Song: Diary Of Jane - Breaking Benjamin
Mood: Neutral

Yes I get the fact that I'm pretty much of a big disappointment to my family & friends
Haha.Till today I still am
Whenever I tell them my SPM results ; 2A's
Their smiles turned into a frown
And I'm sure they think I'm weird for being happy about 2A's
What's not to be happy about?
As long as I didn't fail my examinations or even get some D's and I qualify to hold on to something I dear most ; college friends, my position as a class rep and foundation course
I feel truly blessed with my grades ; if I compare it to my trials results
But the whole annoying thing comes when people ask me about my friends grades and etc.
Then they wouldn't be satisfied with my achievement
It totally bugs me
I'll roll on bed every night thinking I could have done better and blame myself for being stupid and lazy
I think the worst remark was when one of my friend got 7A's and she asked me how many A's I got and I told her I got 2A's
Then I complimented her and said she was smart for getting 7A's
And she said I was smart but I just didn't study hard enough
Ouch. It truly was a major slap in the face but well, if people wanna judge me that way
So be it.
I know I deliberately torture myself into studying for 2 weeks straight
Yet no one knows ; only God and me
And those who are reading this O:
Well if everyone is disappointed with my recent achievement
Just so you know , I really don't care about what you think
As long as I feel good about myself and my achievement it's perfectly fine
As long as I meet my life's requirements ; which is exceptionally low
And get into a decent college and university
And work my way up that steep social ladder
As long as my income allow me to survive ; providing shelter and daily necessity
I'm more than thankful already.
Usually people think I'm crazy for not dreaming big
The reason is simple ; I don't like getting my hopes up when I already know where I would fall
So I always prepare myself for the worst and hope for the better
That way I wouldn't hate myself so much and be devoured by other people's remarks
Why do you think I laugh so easily and get over things quickly? (:

Sorry to be a disappointment!
But that's just how I roll (:
Afterall, I'm a heart breaker :P

"Don't mind criticism. If it is untrue, disregard it; if unfair, keep from irritation; if it is ignorant, smile; if it is justified it is not criticism, learn from it"
- Anonymous

Self satisfaction

2010-03-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

Song: Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
Mood: Satisfied

Today is a good day
It really is 'cause it just is (:
Actually every Friday is a good day
Cause we have 2 hours of recess!
Yes 2 hours
That's when we went to a friends house and did a group sing along with her guitar after lunch
Everyone was fantasizing about making a band
Haha the KBU band!
I'm just the decoration 8DD
Then my friend wore a really funny socks
It has someones face on it!
Hahaha damn funny
Then after class we had to draw each others feet
Just by looking at the socks , my group cracked up
Its just freaking funny, if you think of it as a voodoo sock
After class, I had my second driving lesson
I thought my car engine would die
BUT IT DIDN'T!
Well, not as frequent as last time O:
How awesome is that?
Then on my 3rd lesson, I'll be driving on the highway
How freaky is that
But the saddest thing is I DON'T HAVE THE STRENGTH TO PULL THE HAND BREAK!
How depressing is that!
I'll go build muscle and get a tight and strong grip to pull the darn hand break
That's that
(: So satisfied with my day.

Who said driving was easy?

2010-03-13T15:39:00.003+08:00

Song: Shattered - Trading Yesterday
Mood: Traumatized

Went for my first driving lesson today
It really wasn't easy AT ALL
Maybe its just me cause I have what you call hand and leg coordination malfunction
Its just the bloody clutch that's giving me problems!
So frustrating!
I'll keep trying but right now, I seriously am traumatized and despised manual cars
Till then
I've got like 2 and 1/2 more art work to produce.
Wish me luck (:

SPM Results are OUT

2010-03-11T12:49:00.004+08:00

And I'm back from collecting it
I am...
very
very
very...
d-DELIGHTED
ECSTATIC!
Zomd I got 2A's!!!
And straight B's
And one C
:D OMG I'M GONNA CELEBRATE!
Be back later!~

---------------------------

Woot! I went and celebrate with Max and Shaun (2 of my tuition friends)
Well it was a last minute planning
Supposed to be me and Shaun cause ; I don't know?
Told you it was last minute
But the fact it would seem like a date was pretty ....W.E.I.R.D
Yet Shaun assured me that we'd bump into someone today and will end up hanging out with them
Well and true, we bumped into Max :D
It was a really weird and random day
No, it wasn't boring not even one bit
And I think hanging out with guys is cooler than hanging out with girls
Maybe its just me ; expressing my inner man
OH! I met many recognizable faces and well it was fun xD
People changed, physically.
Puberty was cruel, so was school rules-_-
And there was this odd incident where I went into the men washroom by accident
LOL that's one really embarrassing thing that I'd never forget
It also taught me a valuable lesson
ALWAYS CHECK THE SIGN BEFORE ENTERING.
(: That's that.
Can't wait for the next outing!
Time to work!
Till then ;)

What really matters most

2010-03-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

Live the moment as it is
Forgetting every thing that would torment my present and affect its growth
Cherish the people I've met so far
For I really do not have the confidence that I could remain where I am
I don't see my own potential even tho people around me do
I'm just paranoid for I know that I'm gambling what is precious to me now
And regretting about what I have not done is simply worthless
So I'll just live today as it is
And hope for a better future (:

5 credits is all I need to remain where I am
Oh God, please I need your guidance now...

Would you look at that

2010-03-07T22:16:00.002+08:00

Not only have I been procrastinating on work , but I've also been procrastinating on blogging
Shame on me.
Kidding, I'm just lazy that's all
And my work is just been piling up on its own.
Thankfully, they know how to arrange themselves in a mannerly order
So my most recent (and major) course work would be the Self expressionism work which comprises of
3 A3 picture , 2 A2 collage and 1 A2 assemblage work.
Everything needs to be in black and white ; sadly
How big is A3?
umm...two A4 joined together. Portrait form
And A2 is two of A3 which is 4 of A4
:D That's how big it is
The theme of the self expressionism is past, present and the future
Pretty interesting right?
Well, kind of
If you don't have to produce 3 pictures
-dies-
And I also have wood carving for print making
Like making little stamps where you put ink on it and stuff
But this is a big stamp O:
And I don't know what picture to do cause the previous one was too hard to carve
I feel like dying some how cause
SPM results is like in 4 days time?
Haha doomed!
DOOMED
Anyways, till then :D
bye :D

Cloud nine...maybe ten?

2010-02-22T17:21:00.002+08:00

zomd. I feel like I'm on cloud nine
Why? Because my dad bought me my own laptop.
Woot! Inspiron 14" and its red!
They normally charge for colour change but hey
I bought it the right time (:
Plus a graphic tablet. Tho its not bamboo, but it still serves the purpose
Ignore me and my materialistic ways (:
Its just that the features are so awesome
Windows 7 ; so sleek and so classy
Oh and another thing happened
Today I got my Class Rep. Card
And I was the assistant of my batch
But today, I became the class rep O:
Funny thing x)
But its the lecturers who choose me
Work starts piling up as usual
So I better get back to work (:
Till then :D

I need a plastic surgeon!

2010-02-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

Kidding.

Hmm...how should I start this post.

OMG-lah all my friends becoming pretty and handsome

Me? The childish and immature faceeeeee!!!

Haha. I guess its good progress knowing that everyone would be attractive men and women

Except me. Muahaha

No I'm not jealous, pft...why would I be?

I like having that immature face ; makes me younger!

Kidding (:

But I still like my immature face (:

Always will (:

Anyways ;

ZOMD PEOPLE!

SPM RESULTS

16th MARCH 2010!!!!

I feel like fainting.

Actually, not really

Maybe I've prepared myself for the worst ; then again maybe not

Lets face reality, what's done is done.

There's nothing I can do to change my result

I'm very...err...optimistic? Maybe pessimistic.

Either way, the feeling is neutral

OMG-lah everyone become so pretty and handsome

Haha. I'm just acting jealous (:

Please don't take me seriously.

Paint the town red

2010-02-16T17:05:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year was here and still is
Which is why I haven't been blogging
Not because I was avidly playing dragonica ; oh no
Okay maybe yes :P
But because the festive season was here and I was away ; and still am away from home
So to everyone a happy Chinese new year (:
What's this?
Valentine's day coincides with Chinese New Year as well O:
So Happy Val val day to everyone too (:
May everyone find love on this auspicious day.
Muahahaha.
What am I saying-_-"
Till then!

P.S : Due to the heat and humidity of where I am now, I don't feel like blogging
Will blog in an air conditioned room!
SOON!
I hope :P

Round, circle, sphere

2010-02-03T16:44:00.002+08:00

My head is spinning 360 degrees from yesterday's Lino ink and thinner smell

Oh gosh ; and this morning I had to like come up with an outline for my assignment

Ouch my little head.

Then today I read up on Christian Art

Honestly speaking, I like Greek and Roman art more than Christian art

Greek and Roman art seems more DYNAMIC

Ouch again for my little head.

Anyways,

Today I went to Centrepoint to have lunch with my mom and sister

So my mom drove into Centrepoint carpark and to enter you need to press that button thing-a-magic to get a ticket

And there was this guy who was standing at that ticket machine trying to get a ticket cause he lost his

He took my mom's ticket and went off

So that guy left without having to pay a RM20 fine and my mom was left without a ticket-_-"

Then I explained to my mom about the car ticket system only that she realize that she'll never get the ticket back

Men these days-_-

So we went and try to undo what we've done but failed

Then we went to the security center where we had to explain what had happened

"Someone took our car park ticket"

The guard exempted us from paying the ticket after looking at the cctv

So we got a ticket again ;D

I think the guy should have not been a jerk

Look, the ticket is your responsibility and if you lost it go and pay the fine

Don't let someone else fill in your shoes ; especially a stranger-_-"

If my mom had to pay RM20 for that guy

I'd consider this day the worst day ever

But she didn't have to (:

Still today suck cause of my head :D

I'm gonna go rest my spinning head

Till then :/

I can't think of a suitable blog post.

2010-01-29T20:30:00.003+08:00

I can't think of anything to name this post.

Anyways, today is the day I spent rather much on stuff

What stuff??

Merchandises made by my seniors to sell at our car booth bazaar.

It was rather lively in the morning, then the crowd starts to die down around 12pm

Rather pathetic but I guess it should be normal cause its a Friday

Hopefully the crowd would be more tomorrow (:

Then everyone will have great sales

I was barbecue in the sun and soaked in sweat as the day was scorching hot

So to kill time I went and buy some stuff from the vendors

I bought 3 key holder and some red packets which are handmade

Then I did a henna tattoo

Its my first time doing it and I thought the design is amazing

Hope it'll stay longer than one week O:

Then Jennifer and Montri came

He was wearing formal wear and she wore casual

I miss them so much

Tho I saw Jennifer umm...on Wednesday or so

Still, I miss her D:

Then we went back to our secondary school and chit chat a little

And they pointed out how much I socially changed from being introvert to extrovert ; which I won't deny

So yeah, you can considered that I changed but I guess its a good change?

When night came , I went out to dinner with Jennifer, Dinesh and Min Yap my other classmates from secondary school

Seriously I'm not lying that I miss everyone cause I so do!

It doesn't really matter if I knew anyone or not, was I close to them or not
Its the atmosphere I missed and everyone help contribute to it

But I like having my own group of awesome people in college (:

Meeting new people is fun!!!

You have to agree with me on that :D

I didn't really talk much cause, maybe cause I didn't know Min Yap and Dinesh very well

Just acquaintances, yet I hope we'll still keep in touch

Well I guess that's pretty much what I'm gonna blog about today.

Time to dive back into work ; tho I'm tired.

There's no rest when it comes to work (:

Its a consistent act.

Till then

I wish to ride this someday in the future (:

It's the Singapore Flyer!

Imagine the view you can see from up there!

Just another manic monday.

2010-01-25T21:17:00.004+08:00

Don't wish it was Sunday tho, since I'll be bored to death on a Sunday :/

I did embossing and debossing in class today

What is that?

Its something like stenciling but you make the pictures pop up instead

Very interesting (:

I had to design a stencil using my initial

In the end I designed a gold fish with my name in it :D

One work done

Yet I'm still as busy as a bee

Oh noes D:

Am on the phone with Jennifer

Nostalgia hit me (:

Anyways back to what I've been doing

Oh my lecturer praised my artwork

Yipee!

And I got stung by a BEE

Yes a bee D:

It hurts and my hand went cold and numb

But apparently my body have enough toxins to ward of that nasty poison

FEAR ME VAMPIRES :D

Other than that today was pretty hectic (:

Okay back to work

I guess I'll have to delay my sketching cause my printer isn't working-_-

So frustrating

Till then :D

Ask and you'll be given.

2010-01-21T21:40:00.004+08:00

I'm only blogging cause Shar asked me to (:

Sorry but lately I've been really busy cause I've got at least 36 artwork to produce!!

Yes 36 D:

So far I've done like ; 11 drawings

Not much of a progress but art has always been very time consuming

But the progress is F.U.N

Recently I did mostly drawing from different perspective and using only straight lines and curve lines kind of drawing

Fun but when you're mentally blocked ; you're mentally blocked ):

I also did world history on arts which I think is pretty interesting as you get to see how art evolved

Today's chapter was all on Greek Art and how it has become the s

tepping stone for the arts

Facinating.

Then we had english class

My teacher ran out screaming in pain to the wash room

Weird start for the first class

We were scared that she's got hysteria

But it turns out she was having severe menstruation cramp till it affected the spine ._.

So we went back early and I did moooooore drawing

I'll show you some of my artwork (:

It's so amateurish.

This is one of the sketch of a flower I picked up before school.

Yes, its part of my work

I've to sketch 3 organic and 3 man made material from at least 3 different perspective

This is my straight line only drawing Alice In Wonderland (:

Everything is entirely straight line and there's no curve line

If it looks curved , you're deceived (:

The most recent news is that my friends want to nominate me as a class representative

Which I don't see how am I the more potential candidate

Tho I act a bit crazy and loud sometimes

And am very extrovert now (:

Still a little introvert but more extrovert and random :D

That's my social and study life for now

Okay I'm gonna go catch a show (:

Till then

Burn a hole in my pocket

2010-01-17T19:41:00.002+08:00

Went out shopping with Angela, Dameli and Aaron today

They're my course mates by the way

Anyways, we're suppose to go to Damansara Perdana to get our art materials which we're supposed to have tomorrow for project class

But omg the shop was close!!!

No surprise cause it's a Sunday

So we had to go to The Gardens where there's also an art shop there

And that's the only art shop that's open on Sunday

So we gathered our material and was about to pay

Oh god , I nearly cried at the counter when the cashier showed me the total

RM 171.80 for everything

By everything I mean 6 brushes, 8 acrylic paint, 1 box of willow charcoal and 1 news print paper

Having to fork out RM200 on my own was hard

And as the cashier print out my receipt

God, its so long as tho I have been grocery shopping!

And they sold their A2 sketch book for RM69.90!

I bought mine at the normal stationary shop for RM11.50!

I'll let you do the math (:

Who knew that art materials would cost so much
I guess it was pretty much expected

So those planning to take arts ; you have been forewarned :D

Still I'm excited about class tomorrow

Hello painting and major mess (:

Oh and if you've been wondering about my college project

Check it out by clicking here

It's one of my seniors blog and since I didn't get any pictures for it

I'll just have to link you to her :D

That's about everything

Just wanted to rant about the hole in my pocket

Even the taxi driver made me poorer-_-

This is the blogger signing off!

According to you.

2010-01-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

Just a random title ; since I'm actually listening to According to You by Orianthi

Anyways, long story short

I went to Popular today to get some art materials and I met Russell Lee ; IN PERSON

Lol I'm not a crazy fan but I do read his books

So I seize that chance to get his book autographed by buying his latest book no.19 which is about angels

Since I'm an angel believer (:

Anyways, he was pretty scary looking ; google to know why O:

But he's actually friendly and funny

I was wearing this "Little Miss Bossy" shirt and he asked "Are you really bossy, just teasing"

And then he signed my book and will post the goodies to me all the way from Singapore :D

How awesome muahaha.

He did say he is confident about his research on angles (:

YAY! Angels do exist! :D

Oh about college , I went for the interview

Now to see if I can make it for the second interview :/

I don't know how much do I want it

Anyways, college has been fun

And flexible ; at the moment

MUAHAHAHA.

Sorry, am addicted to evil laugh ;D

Random fact :

"We Chinese eat anything that have legs except tables and anything with wings except aeroplanes"

- I got this from one of Bobby Chin's cooking show :D

Day 2 ; No more Blues

2010-01-07T16:35:00.003+08:00

Hello hello!

I've enough energy to actually blog

So to start of the first semester ; we were given project work!

Well, working side by side with our seniors that is

It was fun as we get to make a giant mess out of everything

And learn some tips from seniors

The seniors are doing this project where they have to set up booths to sell their hand made stuff with the theme called Chinese New Year and Valentines Day

Everything from boxes to cards were all hand made

Tiring as we had to cut, spray, stick and cut stuff

And we had pizza ; yum yum

I guess you can say college life isn't that bad, Yet?

Oh I met one of my lecturers ; actually 2

Pretty interesting people :D

Everyone in KBU is interesting

The people are nice (:

Even the international students (:

I just remember that I have an interview session tomorrow at the student council ; why did I sign up for that again?

Anyways ; I've got nothing to lose so yeah (:

Now the thing I'm worried most is my SPM results

Oh please please please give me at least 5C's

I really wanna stay in Foundation of Art and Design ):

Haha. It's not like God reads my blog

So till then ;D

I wonder how did college went for Jennifer :/

College ; Day 1

2010-01-06T17:53:00.003+08:00

Hmm...how am I to describe this day

I'd say it was odd and also rather interesting (:
So yeah today was my first day of college with orientation and such

My day started of with a rush

I woke up at 8.20am and my class starts at 9.00am

And there was this awful traffic jam D:

Then when I got there I realized ; OH! Today is orientation day :P

Oh well no biggie , just need to walk up and down the cafeteria and keep myself sane

Its pretty lonesome at the beginning

But well, you can't always bring your peers with you everywhere now can you?

So I sat there and went to the lecture hall around 10am

It was pretty big and cold

There they briefed us about things like accessing our email add

Which at the moment failed for me

So yeah after that I still have not know or met anyone

Went to my class ; now known as a studio where I'd do most of my work there

Still am a stranger to everyone

That's okay cause next was the ice breaking session

Which was fun (:

Cause I get to mix around and break the ice around me

Then this Friday I'm going for an interview to be part of the student council

Actually, I don't really have any intention of being part of the student council

But well, I've never been to an interview before so what the heck :P

It's not like I'll lose anything

Oh and I also got my book or should I say material list

Gosh, so much stationary to buy like charcoal and special eraser and stuff

But I'll have orientation for 2 weeks so no rush in buying anything at the moment

Tho I really need a jacket since the place is really, really cold

The people there are rather nice, okay they are nice

Well, the Student Council that is

And there are lots of foreign student , more than local students-_-

Okay, I'm dead tired now so I won't press further

Till then.
Will try to blog tomorrow if not tired :/

2010

2010-01-04T11:27:00.003+08:00

Its the new year :D

Sorry if it took me that long to post something new

The truth is that I do not want 2010 to come

Sounds pathetic I know but well, you can't run away from reality

Why am I running away or what am I running away from?

College, driving school and everything else

I just can't accept the fact that I'm going to be 18 ( not that age mattered )

And I'll have to fend for myself in many things

Growing up ; its painful

Especially when you have to relive everything again

Example , meeting new people.

I don't really fit in in anything

But well, TIME TO WAKE UP BIG BABY!

Reality is out there and its like a sea with lots of big sharks

Eat or be eaten!

LOL just trying to motivate myself

Since I'm pretty nervous and wrecked

Especially about the fact that I still need at least 5 Credits!

So tensed...-_-

Well, time to fly

College starts on the 6th Jan

Hopefully it'll be good :/

Happy Birthday Mad Dog!!

2009-12-29T19:02:00.004+08:00

Me : HEY MAD DOG!!!! :D

Skittles : What?

Me : *GASP* YOU JUST TURNED A YEAR OLD!!!!

YOU OLD FART!!! :D

So Yeah!

Happy Birthday Mad Dog!!! (:

Tho you rebel and protest and whine a lot

Yes a lot >:/

Skittles : -Hides- Sorry.....

That's okay! We still love Y.O.U :DD !!!

We love you cause you're family now (:

Oh come on ; how can you resist a face like this ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU SILLY MAD DOG!!!! (:

credits to sister for picture edits (:

She should really be a photographer :/

Footsteps

2009-12-27T19:16:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's with the blog title but oh well too lazy to think

So much things happened ; busy busy (:

25th December

Aunt and Uncle came over to visit my sister.

Nothing much really happened , tho I got a "Christmas" gift from Eng Hoe titled 'To Kill A Mocking Bird'

Weird cause I recommended him the book and he gave it to me as a Christmas present.

Overall I thought it was the worst Christmas ever ; since I don't know?

So much stuff happened.

Ugh....did I mention I couldn't sleep that night ; was thinking too much

As usual, it was something really major.

I don't take my thinking too lightly.

26th December

Went for driving course no.1

Didn't sleep the night, no thanks to things-_-

And I came back around 5pm

Went to the centre at 7.30am and the course only started at 11am

I thought it would bore me to death at first but then I made a friend there (:

And the speaker made things funny

Yay! Not so boring anymore

But was tired and I really mean tired

Hello? I didn't sleep the whole night remember

And when I got back my mom took me to Subways to eat

Muahahahaha. Turkey, yum :P

My day ended at 11.30pm where I just drop dead on my bed and wondered to snooze land.

27th December.

It was an awesome day since I went out to watch an awesome play titled "A Light in KL City"

Its funny and sad at some parts.

But very entertaining especially the beginning part LOL.

Won't tell you what is the beginning part

The play is based at a Hotel that's about to be demolish.

Here's the synopsis from the net :

In downtown Kuala Lumpur, in an old hotel on the corner, a light is being snuffed out. When the day comes to a close and dawn rises, the hotel will be closed and the jack-hammers will come down. Now, the many characters who live there must find a way to break out, because when the hotel comes down, they can either go down with it and be lost as well or find the light within themselves to guide them.

A Light in KL City tells the story of the things we throw away- old buildings, history… people; this is the story of those who have been cast out and left behind in the city, forgotten by the future. People we shouldn’t throw away.That's about it for today I guess.

I know I'm rather tired. I'll get going
I hope my dad would get my sister a guitar for her 7A's success.
-Prays really hard-
Oh dad's gonna take me our to choose my laptop tomorrow.
I'm thinking...

A 14" Dell Inspiron (:

Getting the black one cause you need to pay RM84.00 to change the colour-_-"

Okay. Till then (:

Night Market ; Its a Malaysian Culture

2009-12-24T22:38:00.008+08:00

Took Skittles out to the night market

Sister and I wanted Soy Milk

So we took Skittles along since it was getting late

On the way there, Skittles heard a few dogs barking

So yeah she barked back and clawed my face ; painful but bearable

We bought our Soy Milk and the vendor suddenly asked my sister if Skittles was for sale

Maybe he asked that cause she wasn't wearing a collar

He asked us to sell Skittles to him for RM2000!

Thanks for the offer but,

This silly pooch here is family now (:

She's the best mad dog I can ever ask for ; better not let her see this or she'll eat me D:

Skittles came home happy cause she get to go out to some place different

Now she's snoozing.

Skittles ; off to snooze land

Till then :D

Cookies & Milk = Santa

2009-12-24T15:07:00.005+08:00

Get your cookies and milk ready cause Santa is coming!! :D

Don't forget about the giant socks and tree!

And what better way to kick start the Christmas season with PMR RESULTS!!

Yes, I guess the education department is this year's Malaysia's Santa Claus-_-

Yet I'm very proud to say that my sister got straight A's :)

She's awesome so duh she can get straight A's

Other than that,

I watched Avatar the other day with Kritz who's an old classmate

This movie O:

Gosh he's quiet. Awkward...

Anyways I think the movie was awesome (:

Tho I don't like the intergalactic romance

Weird...Yet it was much enjoyable with the very different storyline.

Still have to apologize to Kritz for dragging him all the way here just to hang out

I thought he lived near University Malaya but actually he's living in Kajang

My bad :/

But I did treat him due to the inconvenience (:

Lately I've been Skype-ing with Shareen

Weird cause I don't know what to say ; maybe I just don't know where to start

She's working hard on her guitar unlike me ; slacking cause I can't stand the sight of my guitar-_-

And oh her English is so good that she makes me feel cinafied

Thanks Shar for making me feel cinafied :|

Lol just kidding.

But its cool, signs of progress O:

Ahahaha, now all I need to do is wait for my SPM results

Oh and college which will start in January 6th

~~So looking forward to college (:~~

Forget that I said that ; still not content with the number of holidays I got.

Okay, too hungry to blog.

Did I mention I'm gonna buy Skittles a piggy bank

Don't know which one to get for her

And her birthday is 29th December

And the money we'll give her goes into the piggy bank to buy something she need like a new dog collar or doggy treats (:

How awesome is that!? :DD

Credits to me cause I'm the one who thought about it :D

Okay hungry.

Ciao ;D

The search is over ; but my life isn't

2009-12-20T18:58:00.005+08:00

The search is over for my college.

Dad enrolled me into KBU college

Went for the open day today and I would say the college is pretty big ; and am still expanding!

I think they have roughly 3 computer labs and the lecture hall looked like a classroom

Only the table was bigger ; the only difference

At least now I won't miss secondary school that much

Everything is coursework based so goodbye theory! :D

But it was rather embarrassing as I thought I have at least 5 credits for my forecast exam

Turns out I only got 3A's and 1 B out of 10 subjects ; only 4 subject above credits

Haha. I'm a joke!

Left one more damn mizerable subject.

But the KDU people were nice enough to let me enroll with my result

Duh they have conditions ; that I get at least 5 credits in the actual exam SPM slip

Haha. Doomed.

Got really low self esteem now

Cause if I don't get at least 5 credits in SPM

I have to stoop down to diploma and drop my foundation

Oh the agony.

There's only one picture to describe how I feel now

Yes. I have the urge to actually do that.

Don't tempt me.

Seriously.

Forgot to mention that I actually am taking the foundation in the January intake

Why? SPM was over just last week!?

Yeah, but I don't want to graduate in 2014 when I can graduate in 2013!

What's the difference , a year difference

I don't know , I just feel like life's more than just studying and being compressed with books.

If only I were a clown ; wait...I hate clowns

Bleh.. So many things to juggle so little hands and time

Oh well, life is a mizerable mistress (:

Till then!

Picture of the day

2009-12-19T21:57:00.005+08:00

Skittles : Wee...check out my red bucket! It's multi functional! :D

I can ride and bathe in it

How awesome is that? (:

Haha.Cute , no?

You better say yes or suffer the consequences (:

Okay, time to roll.

Love 'ya all (:

The season is back ; whats not to love?

2009-12-19T21:07:00.004+08:00

Christmas is here ; well close

Sorry that I have not been blogging much

Its just I was busy...yes really I was busy

Okay I lied, I was just lazy

Happy now?
Anyways, oh gawd my feet are killing me

Walked at 1 utama for what, infinite hours?

Seriously, I can use a foot massage now-_-

Was there since around 11.30am and I got back at 7.00pm so yeah ; go figure

And the most weird thing was spending the day with my sister and her friend who brought a friend along and she's got a Prada handbag O_O

r.i.c.h

and she's scary to me and my sister ; cause we felt under dressed compared to her expensive

designer brand attire

Anyways we wanted to watch The Princess and the Frog

yes, this.

But the tickets were selling fast , really fast

I've watched it before so no sweat :D

Tho I really want to watch it again

Its so cute and funny (:

Sorry if I don't act my age but that's just who I am I guess

A sucker for Disney movies ; and am proud to be one (:

My sister friend says I look younger than my sister ; cause I'm short

Hey! I'm not short , just fun sized

Kidding, I do admit I'm short but there's really nothing I can do about it

Maybe I can but well, I'm still content to have legs and hands and eyes and ears and nose and...you get the picture.

Oh dear, now my dad can't decide to which college I should go to

So many to choose from ; how frustrating!

There's PJ College of Art and Design, Raffles International College and The One Academy with more accreditation compared to KBU International College according to my dad

What a life.

Why must we grow up?

And right now I'm having a hard time parting with an item which is bound to be a gift for a friend

I'm a sucker for cute and weird things ; AND Disney movies (:

Muahahaha.

Anyways, its time for me to perform my final act

The disappearing trick (:

*poof*

Decaying. My new life cycle

2009-12-14T14:30:00.002+08:00

Yes people! I'm rotting at home now since I don't have to study or do anything...

At the moment that is other than finding a driving school and trying to enroll for college

Gosh, growing up sure is tiresome!

So, my plans to spend the 3 month break would be

1) going to driving school

2) getting a job

3) hanging out with friends (which at the moment seem impossible since I have such tight schedule-_-)

4) reading books, drawing and playing games

Oh life...so uneventful. More reasons to decay

Watched 2012 yesterday.

I think that show was okay, didn't like the fact I was paying to watch people die...

Its sadistic. Love the dog tho :D

Okay, time to hit the books ; story books I mean (:

I know I'm nerdy, so?

Till then ;D

Clock's ticking.

2009-11-24T20:10:00.003+08:00

Managed to steal some time to actually blog, so amazing as tomorrow I have both my add maths paper.

Now what am I doing here? Hmm...

So SPM is fine, yes fine. Just fine

But I feel like I screw up most of my paper

I pray that I'm wrong.

But I know I screwed up my history paper :D

Its crazy that I actually have time to slack on exam

Goes to show I'm really lazy and I don't work well under pressure.

I do sometimes and sometimes I don't

Oh and I DIDN'T SLEEP ON THE FIRST DAY OF EXAM! :D

Bold move, no?

And my paper ends at 4pm.

LOL. I had insomnia, perfect timing I tell you.

And I watched dead silence that night, so yeah didn't sleep too :|

Most ironic thing was that the article for the BM essay was causes of sleep deprive and ways to overcome it.

I was staring at that thing. Its like a premonition or something O:

Oh and Shar, don't stay up too much. Lack of sleep make you not remember things :)

I wonder how's Shar and her family.

How's her grandma?

Well, I'll ask her that if we manage to chance upon each other on the net.

Okay. Got to go, bye (:

Butterflies in my tummy.Not a good thing.

2009-11-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'm anxious.

SPM is in 2 days time, or less D:

And I'm not prepared , like a soldier without his gun in a battle field.

Which means, no hope of surviving!!

I'm not prepared, I'm slacking and my tummy is churning.

This is so awful!!!

No point regreting

Safe to say I've reached the point of no return :D

On hiatus, sorry Shar ):

Take care peeps and good luck soldiers ,get yourself well equipped ):

It will be bloody. . .

Hysteria

2009-10-28T04:57:00.003+08:00

Going a little bit hysterical in a way.

Currently 4.58 am ; and I'm supposed to go to school TODAY

But what the heck, there's alway TOMORROW :)

I planned my timetable, simple to follow but may vary at times

I hate timetables that are too organized, makes me feel like my whole entire lifetime is planned out.

My timetable

Monday : History or Add Maths

Tuesday: Physics or Chemistry

Wednesday: Physics or Chemistry

Thursday: Mod Maths or Biology

Friday: Biology or Add Maths

Sat: 1/2 day study. any subject!!

Sunday: Add Maths or History

This is what I call ; the couldn't.care.less.but.does.care timetable :D

And I just discovered my favorite day ; Saturday :)

Okay, proceding to a less stressful topic now... SKITTLES :)

I kind of realize how much stress this blog gives me stress ; I KEEP HIGHLIGHTING ABOUT SPM D:

Moving on :)

Skittles is so adorable :D

. . .

Next topic :|

Ever wonder what happens to everyone after secondary school?

Will everyone still keep in touch ;or maybe even try to keep in touch ?

Will they forget us ; or maybe try to forget us ?

Will we still remember what happened, who we hung out with, who we called 'best friends' ?

I know I will, or maybe I will try ; no promises

But will try to still keep in touch with good friends that changed my junior, sophomore and senior year

To people I knew ; not acquaintances but friends

IF I don't remember you. . .

You can hit me hard on the head* :D

Seriously, I'm being generous now :D

*Terms and Conditions Apply

Only valid till year 2009.

If my head got whacked after 2009 ; I deserve to whack your head back (:

Only hit me with a valid reason (eg : you're my best friend, close friend, friend and I forgot about you).

Hitting for fun deserves a brick in the head ; joking...Then again I MAY be serious :D

Lol sorry for the random topic , pretty much in thought now.

ANYWAYS , I have to go now.

On hiatus till SPM is done for :)

That is ; 21 days till SPM

With 3 weeks of exam , for me that is

So you do the math, I'm done with maths for today :D

Till then , good night or good morning and good luck to everyone :)

Time to make up, wake me up!

2009-10-07T03:24:00.002+08:00

Time to make up from my failing grades

4 F's had hit me hard on the head. ouch!

Well not hard enough but hard enough to make me study :D

The grading system has changed. Oh no!?

Say good bye to A1 and meet your new enemy A+

A+ is 85 and above

Traumatizing.

But I believe I can :D

Confidence is a stepping stone to success

Yes. 10A+

Clearly, I'm aiming too much

But I definitely want my Modern Maths to have an A+

And English too :)

Since I'm on my study break, everyday is just the same ol' routine

Study, Play, Eat, Play, Sleep?

Harvest Moon, I hate you D:

I quit facebook :D Amazingly.

And OMGPOP too :O

Blogging, not to frequent :|

Just hogging the computer to play Harvest Moon. Sorry, I'm lifeless :P

Not to mention, I've been reading a lot of story books :D

Can't wait to read "The Time Traveler's Wife" :3

I sound nerdy....hmm.

Maybe I am :O

NERDS ARE COOL :D

in a way ._."

Well, good luck to PMRers and SPMers BULK UP

We're down to less than a month! D:

Till then :)

P.S

You might be wondering why am I up so late.

I'm having insomnia :D and felt like blogging while doing MATHS :D

I'm strange in a cool way :)
Just kidding. Don't take me too seriously :P

Anti-Depressant Pills

2009-09-29T15:06:00.003+08:00

Spare me some :D

F is for FAILURE :D

Got back some exam results

And the marks brought me to my breaking point

Yes breaking point!

I'm not made of steel you know :)

The most disappointing one was my Physics and Chemistry

I worked hard, true

Guess its just not hard enough :/

So I'll try harder

Seesh...I keep telling myself that

Well, PMR is next week so I'll have more time to revise since I have NO SCHOOL :D

Generally, I'll be hidden away behind tower of books

TRYING to study

So you'll only see me update this blog probably 2 times a month

I promised myself I can only use the internet 1hour 30minutes MAXIMUM

Discipline :|

Well gotta go.

Time's almost up

Add Maths here I come :D

Take care peeps and good luck PMR sitters :)

September Steps In

2009-09-20T20:23:00.002+08:00

Eons ago.

We're down to the second last week of the month.

I hope everything was well or turned out well :D

Was having 3 weeks of exams which brought the delay on updates O:

Sorry for that.

My last day of exams was supposed to be on Friday the 18/9/09

But because the government's surprising declare of holiday, my end of exam was postponed for one week.

Talk about irony.

Holidays are here ; so to all

A Happy Holiday and Selamat Hari Raya :)

Yet a friendly reminder,

SPM is making its move, so troops BE PREPARED

If you screw up trials, so be it.

What's done is done and there's no turning back.

So I'm polishing my skills and started studying, and I hope you all have too

I shall now shed some light on what happened during the past 3 weeks.

I did practically nothing but study

With some help from Eng Hoe, Por Lyn and CongYu I managed to make it through those nasty subjects

Thanks for the help :)

How well can I score, ah...that's another story :D (Very obvious I can't do well)

Other than that there's nothing much

I stared reading "Tuesday's With Morrie" during the midst of exam

And JUST finished the book couple of days ago

Very inspiring and touching, its based on a true story :D
Mitch Albom is my favorite author :3

In progress in reading another book by him titled "Five People You Meet In Heaven"

Been a book worm lately, but it helps me explore and improve my vocabulary

So why not :P

That's about it then

My life's pretty boring-_-"

Till then :D

Book Hunt

2009-08-26T17:43:00.003+08:00

I want a copy of my own

Just finished "Sisters"

Such a great book

I loved it more than the Twilight Saga

Wait a minute, since when did I like the Twilight Saga?

~~Compared to Edward Cullen, Chris is way better~~

I better not say that or Edward Cullen fans will try to pin their fangs into my neck. Ouch.

Now I'm browsing the web to see its available in any book store

To my dismay its OUT OF STOCK

How could you D:

Well, I'll probably drop by any store and pre-order it

That is if I'm going out again, I hope so

I just want to reread that book again after SPM D:

Ugh...I don't wanna return that book now <_<"

Back to text books

Have mercy!! D:

GOOD LUCK PEEPS FOR TRIALS :D